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MissunderstoodGrrl
Junior Member

since 2002-08-24

Posts 27
Ontario, Canada

0 posted 2002-09-07 05:08 PM

Everyday when i awake
the same thing running through my head
"why am i still alive"
everday i hear someone say
"why do you hurt so much"
everyday is a constant battle for me
a constant battle to stay alive
a constant battle to leave my house everyday
the life i am living is all just a joke
it has to be
why else would i hurt so much
im just a joke
people look at me and laugh
they look and thank god they arent this way to
its a constant battle to stand in a crowd
its hard to speak when there is barely any air to breath
its a constant battle loving someone who doesnt care about me at all
he looks at me and turns away
and nothing hurts me more than watching him walk away
leaving me all alone
to face these battles on my own
its a constant battle to sleep at night
i lie awake for hours
thinking about things that make no sense
thinking of a new life
a life where everything was different
people looking at me and smiling
waking up everyday
being glad to be alive
having my one true love
love me to
but as the hours roll by
nothing in my life changes
im still here with all the pain
still here without him
and still here struggling everyday
fighting so hard to win these battles
that have now taken my life away from me
~september 5 2002 ~Tiffany Loxton~

-:¦:-Hey god i know i'm just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?-:¦:-

Zall
Member

since 2002-08-25

Posts 214
London, England

1 posted 2002-09-08 06:34 AM

Tiffany,

I feel your pain through your words, its very real to me.

Zall

MissunderstoodGrrl
Junior Member

since 2002-08-24

Posts 27
Ontario, Canada

2 posted 2002-09-08 09:42 AM

thank you so much...and knowing there are other people who understand what i feel makes me feel so much better...thank you again
~Tiffany~

-:¦:-Hey god i know i'm just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?-:¦:-

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

3 posted 2002-09-09 01:04 PM

Tiffany,
I hope writing this
helps slam your demons
to the floor.

Nail them there,
and walk away from them.

Mike

Scarlet Lady
Member

since 2000-02-11

Posts 242
Midwest

4 posted 2002-09-10 03:00 AM

Hey Tiffany...You're here to brighten the days of others who are lower than you and cannot, or do not, have the gift to "express" it. You're a light! Your writing can bring hope to others. I know it did me. Funny how pain from others can lighten your own painful situation. I found your writing very insightful and reaching towards the true spirit of a person. Thanks for sharing your true gift.

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