Tender Delusions (Mike's challenge)

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Anvrill
Senior Member

since 2002-06-21

Posts 710
in the interzone now

0 posted 2002-08-18 04:03 PM

Your drug induced sleep is dreamless.
All my tender delusions
abandon me.
The day gets so dark
as I wait for night to fall,
cradling myself
behind these white walls.

You left me helpless at his feet.
The cruelty of a silver-edge man,
his darkness both compelling
and stagnant.
It promises me nothing.
It pretends gently
to bleed.

You left me falling into his eyes.
Dead black
and velvet warm,
swallowing
without room for greed.
All I was,
all I tried,
spinning so far away from me.

You left me surrounded by his past kills.
The blood on his hands
was never his own.
Such creatures don't bleed,
or if they do,
it's too potent for us to know.

You left me there to die.
His motions all mislead,
tainting innocence with tragedy;
tragedy with wanton passion,
needs that can never be justified.

Don't you realize that he's out there,
waiting in the dark?

Sinking into it now,
aided by your poisons.

An ocean of aquamarine eyes,
staring and caressing
and piercing and drowning.

How much more can I bleed?
His eyes are the ocean floor.
His black eyes,
endless,
the ocean floor.

Your drug induced sleep is dreamless,
so you must understand
that none of these are dreams.

My tender delusions
are all gone now.
I think
that I'm finally insane.

This is written about my own personal demon. He has been stalking and ravaging my thoughts and nightmares (and fantasies and writings and everything) for years. His first incarnation appeared five years ago, but he's been forming for much longer than that.

The worst part is I don't even think I want this demon to go away. *sigh* I'm so goth, I even piss myself off.

i'll be waiting for you
do exactly what you're told

jm

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

1 posted 2002-08-18 04:34 PM

smiling...the only proper way to be rid of a demon is not through extermination of said demon--but through its transformation--through love. (I don't make this stuff up--heh--it's a catholic rite of exorcism AND a basic psychology prinicple!)

Excellent portrayal of the haunting of shadow. Enjoyed much, Lady L!

brian sites
Senior Member

since 2002-06-25

Posts 1475
usa

2 posted 2002-08-18 10:45 PM

I love the visuals in the stanza:
"with the ocean of aquamarine eyes"
actually the whole thing crawls
and reaches for the reader
good tingly
and the last line...
yikes
challenge met!
Brian

I never aimed at reality; I aimed at truth. --Orson Welles

bsquirrel

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-01-03

Posts 7855

3 posted 2002-08-19 11:17 AM

*Kiss* you rock!!!

wranx
Member Elite

since 2002-06-07

Posts 3689
Moved from a shack to a barn

4 posted 2003-07-18 11:13 PM

Missing these old voices

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

5 posted 2003-07-19 03:48 AM

God, this made me feel crazy:

My tender delusions
are all gone now.
I think
that I'm finally insane.

Lori, where are you????
xxoo

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