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Troubled Girl |
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Anvrill Senior Member
since 2002-06-21
Posts 710in the interzone now 
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I'm writing this because I've noticed (probably before they got removed) a lot of poems mentioning self-harm recently. I know that writing things out is catharsis, but... Consider what you're doing, people. There are those who are easily impressionable, awright? I knew a girl once who couldn't read any of my early, gorey, angsty writing without getting urges to seriously hurt herself. After finding this out, I only let her read stuff without so much as an implication, and I was more careful about who I showed what after that. Please consider what you're doing, where you're posting, who may read your work. If you need to write these, go ahead and write them, but don't just leave them out for anyone to run across. Troubled Girl In high school, I knew a girl who cut herself. It wasn't her fault; she was on a myriad of drugs. These pills for the OCD, these pills for her mood swings (forget if it's politically incorrect to call it manic depression anymore), and then a few of these pills for her personality disorder. Her psychiatrist listened to Pink Floyd and Jimi Hendrix. The girl listened to The Pixies and The Cure. She had the biggest smile and the smallest shirts (and eventually got her breasts reduced, just so said shirts would actually fit). Her mood swings were wild, even when everything was suppressed. She said she cut herself just to see the colour. Any mention of red or sharp objects would get her going. No doctor-prescribed drug could stop that. On days when she didn't come to school, all her friends would hold their breaths. I would twirl my pen and wait anxiously in the library on the spare we shared, telling myself I would see her again. It was a phase, but it lasted three years. She's still on the drugs, and it's still best to keep her away from the thoughts of self-violence. She's been dating my favorite Brit-punk boy since we left high school behind forever. With her now-smaller breasts, she's still got a brilliant smile and a new confidence that makes her radiant. Her new habit is to talk about sex, and since she's got it with a long-haired Brit, I see no self destruction in that. "Silly bunny, there are no monsters in here." - Chrys, from Gloom Cookie |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
AWESOME! She said burn ... together. |
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idrift2u Member
since 2002-07-09
Posts 60MD., USA |
I feel like im in highschool again. What part of the hallway am I in? Can I sit here and eat? NICE! Thanks |
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Krishankins
since 2002-06-23
Posts 972Texas |
I knew a girl once that was very into what you mentioned. It is very painful for those who care about that person. I have never seen this topic written about so beautifully Anvrill. Great job!!! A bird never flies so high that it can't hit the ground |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
A difficult topic, written with wisdom and insight. I'd say more, but I tend to type too much as it is. Just know that I found this touching, and enlightening. Thanks. |
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brian sites Senior Member
since 2002-06-25
Posts 1475usa |
thanks for this anvrill I am amazed at the prevalence of cutting among teenaged girls. My sister went through a period of that. She has stopped, thankfully, and is happy now Hopefully, your poem raises some awareness among the young people posting here. BS. I never aimed at reality; I aimed at truth. --Orson Welles |
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Anvrill Senior Member
since 2002-06-21
Posts 710in the interzone now |
Thanks for reading, everyone. I feel very strongly on this topic. Though, and this is a fact that seems to pass by most people, it isn't just teen girls. I've known as many guys as girls who found pain to be a release. It's a serious problem in general. I don't know what else I can say here that wouldn't be saying too much... So I'll stop, because it's probably safer to say too little. "Silly bunny, there are no monsters in here." - Chrys, from Gloom Cookie [This message has been edited by Anvrill (07-14-2002 08:36 AM).] |
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GoddessofHell Member
since 2002-07-09
Posts 76 |
Great poem... Heather |
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Purity Senior Member
since 2001-11-20
Posts 526Once Upon, USA |
And I for one was as equally impressed with your notation at the beginning...well said! And an extremely valuable piece of advice. The poem was incredible...I pray the "red" and the sex never mix together (seen that one also) Awesome work! |
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