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xShUgArHiGhx

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since 2000-09-26

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tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

0 posted 2001-04-29 08:08 PM

Its like a conspiracy,
You all have against me.
See i'm sad and crying,
But the badgering doesnt cease.
It only gets worse,
More sticks and stones being thrown.
I have so much pain,
I can feel it in my bones.
Yet im another problem,
An inconvenience you make of me.
You point your ugly finger,
For the whole world to see.

"Excuse me for living,
For breathing in your space.
Forgive me for talking,
I know my breath is a waste."

You push me in a corner,
Never to get out.
To get emotionally beaten,
By the continuing screams and shouts.
Not knowing what i did wrong,
But im shur my mistake you will say.
You say i think everyone loves me,
I guess thats why im on 50 grams of prozack a day.

"I dont think that of me,
Not even remotely close."
But your twiseted devious smile,
Causes me to choke.

The confrontation slowly,
Comes to a brutal end.
One more person gets lost in the rain,
One more non existant friend.
Dust myself off,
Of all the hateful words.
I dont think this is fair,
This is not what i deserve.
Theres no use of fighting,
Atleast i got through the days end.
Tomorrow i'll just pick myself up,
And prepare to do it all over again.

Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

1 posted 2001-04-29 08:27 PM

This is sad. I hope all goes well for you Shugar......

*hugs*
I know you'll do fine.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

Allan Riverwood

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since 2001-01-04

Posts 3502
Winnipeg

2 posted 2001-04-29 08:48 PM

Yes, indeed this is quite sad. I did like the division of stanzas though, very well thought-out with the diverse sizes of them.
Nice work. I wish you the best of luck.
~Allan

Build a man a fire, and he's warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.
~Unknown

LoveBug

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since 2000-01-08

Posts 4697

3 posted 2001-04-29 09:45 PM

Oh gosh... what a sad situation this is. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I hope coming here and sharing this helps you out some. If you ever need to talk, feel free to e-mail me or to go over and post something in the Feelings forum. Thanks for sharing.

"Men judge generally more by the eye than by the hand, for everyone can see and few can feel."-Machiavelli
Blame Canada!

xShUgArHiGhx

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since 2000-09-26

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tRyIn tO fIt iN2 mY oWn ShoEs

4 posted 2001-04-30 08:06 AM

Thank you everyone for replying! I really appreciate it =o)

vixengrl04
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since 2001-04-26

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East Haddam, CT

5 posted 2001-04-30 10:30 AM

This is really sad, but sounds an awful lot like my life. *Hugs* I'm sorry that you have to go through such painful torture, trust me I know how it feels, and it sucks. *sigh* Just try to be strong and hang in there, I'm sure things won't always be this way for you. Good luck, and I liked this piece alot.

~*Nikki*~

~*Of all the millions of people in the world, I'm just me.*~

Acies

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Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-07

Posts 7665
Twilight Zone

6 posted 2001-05-04 01:00 PM

~*Hugs xShUgArHiGhx*~ hope things are better

"So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this give life to thee." W.S.

anonymous albert ?

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since 2001-03-23

Posts 2979

7 posted 2001-05-04 01:18 PM

this is sad and is kinda how i feel about life
you explained it so well..i hope you are able to stay strong..keep writing..even thru the hardtimes...cya~

...?

if i die before i wake , i pray the lord my soul will take-"when thugs cry"

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

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with you

8 posted 2001-05-04 01:47 PM

lots and lots of hugs for you

SEA

xShUgArHiGhx

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9 posted 2001-05-04 02:45 PM

Thank you all for your support and Hugs

Its nice to know i'll always have you guys here. I'll continue to be as strong as i can..but if you only knew the people that go to my school..and how horrible some of them are who call themselfes your so called friend...

[This message has been edited by xShUgArHiGhx (edited 05-04-2001).]

Acies

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Member Rara Avis

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Twilight Zone

10 posted 2001-05-04 06:55 PM

~*hugs again*~

"So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this give life to thee." W.S.

lonely*soul
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since 2001-04-05

Posts 396
east haddam (moodus) ct :)

11 posted 2001-05-04 07:44 PM

i truely live this one...and so true, i can so-o relate..stay strong chica!

*KiM*

DarkAngelOfTheStars
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since 2001-04-21

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12 posted 2001-05-04 08:32 PM

i love this poem...i think a lot of people feel this way. you explained it well and its an awesome poem. and i do hope that everything gets better for you and it will

even if you dont think it will....cuz im always right....hehe not really. but if you ever need to talk you can im me on aol my s/n is PowderPuffGirl2k or email me at PowderPuffGirl2k@yahoo.com hope to see ya more!

never knock on deaths door and run......he hates that!!

[This message has been edited by DarkAngelOfTheStars (edited 05-04-2001).]

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