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Chasing after the wind |
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Tears of Glass Member
since 2000-12-04
Posts 182Physically? VA.... Mentally? I'm not quite sure |
Before I even open my eyes, I quickly must recall, I think that I ate dinner yesterday - Or did I eat it all? No, I didn't, and I sigh with relief. Lately, I seem to think only of the bones, And not of my body's grief. I have an idealistic view, Of what my life would be, If I were 10 pounds lighter… Would I be a better me? Each day I live, I count all I eat, And make excuses for what I don't, To everyone I meet. But I'm still happy, Living my life each day. Or is that just in my head? Just something that I say? Why don't they understand, That eating is not my choice? Day after day I hide from myself, And I dread that inner voice… I have no opinion, No emotion or thought. When did I become this way? Is it something I was taught? It has become my identity, My soul, And my life. When will I just be normal, Not to hurt all the time? When will life be happy? And when will my body become mine? The competition is relentless, No one wants a tie. I just want to be thinner than the rest… But then what? To die? I've done this all before, The low numbers aren't at all new, But I don't want to live this way… And honestly would you? Everyone wants me to stop, But I feel as if I'm pinned Now I realize to be thinner, Is like chasing after the wind. *Jennifer "My nightmare isn't fearing what I dream... It's waking up, knowing what I'll see." [This message has been edited by Tears of Glass (edited 02-13-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
hey, I was gone for a while, and I'm back. I haven't had the pleasure of reading too much of your work but what I have read so far I have found to be very true and real from your heart.But I can tell you that while it is hard to overcome, an eating disorder must be. I was a model, and at 16, I've done a lot. But let me tell you something...I was anorexic. There was so much competition in the agency that I got to the point where I weighed 90 pounds...and I am 5'4. Not tall, but tall enough to look almost dead at that weight. It doesn't just affect your weight, I am now hypogylcemic b/c of it all. And I got lucky. Please, if you need someone to talk to don't hesitate to e-mail me at StarPryncess17@hotmail.com and on AIM at Jpretty1721...and on ICQ if u please. best wishes... ~*~Jessica~*~ "Tell me why you cry" |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
oops "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
oops again "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
this should be illegal "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
yep I should be arrested!! "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
my god, Jessica you are way out of line!!! "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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StarPryncess17 Senior Member
since 2000-05-31
Posts 932Colorado |
ok I am soooo sorry that I am so impatient and just keep hittin the damn button! I'll NEVER do that again! Hope you're not too mad  "Tell me why you cry" [This message has been edited by StarPryncess17 (edited 02-12-2001).] |
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jeremydraul Senior Member
since 2000-08-01
Posts 1118State of Despair |
hahaha... that was weird (not the poem) the poem was incredible... the words were full of concern and searching... the best part was: "Everyone wants me to stop, But I feel as if I'm pinned Now I realize to be thinner, Is like chasing after the wind." Nice job Jeremy "Life is fading me away, far away, but I’m sketching myself back, line by line, mark by mark." - Jeremy Raulinaitis---'Fading Me Away' |
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Dopey Dope
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Member Patricius
since 2000-08-30
Posts 11132San Juan, Puerto Rico |
Nice one here........but geesh starpryncess must've really liked this poem!  I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust. I'm in love with my shadow I admire it daily |
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Acies
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-07
Posts 7665Twilight Zone |
It's ok to try to loose weight, just not to the point of hurting yourself. I'm glad you've realized that what other people say maybe true That, at least, is a step to recovery hope you get better we're all pulling for you  So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this give life to thee." W.S. |
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DancinQueen
since 2000-07-29
Posts 1092Kokomo,IN,USA |
good poem... i have a friend thats bulemic (sp) ugh i always feel so stupid when i feel like im spelling the easiest word wrong..newho,i think i might give this to her. good job *dq ¤Sometimes the hardest thing to get over, is something you never really had¤ |
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Tears of Glass Member
since 2000-12-04
Posts 182Physically? VA.... Mentally? I'm not quite sure |
Hi.. it's fine if you give this to your friend, I don't mind. Thanks for the notes everyone... *Jennifer "My nightmare isn't fearing what I dream... It's waking up, knowing what I'll see." |
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Neokrew Member
since 2000-12-24
Posts 60VA |
Hey Babe, I hate when you do that *bell* there is the bell so I have to go I am in school but still I know your getting help (if you call that help) but you know you can talk to me. --Neo |
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