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Angel in Flight
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0 posted 2001-01-21 02:51 PM


Alright, I believe everyone on the forums really need to hear this because something here is changing my life dramatically.

All my life I have been know as a mistake
and i am starting to think perhaps I really am.
I have never had a true family until I met
all of you wonderful people. Who welcomed
me with open arms and words of wisdom and grace.

But then something went wrong something started to decay. And my special family of friends just wanted me to go away. All we do is fight now and push the others down with disgrace. no one lends a helping hand to clean that tarnished heart or beaten face.

I just want to thank you all for showing me who I am. And making sure I know a mistake is all I will be. I know I wont get far in life without a family.
and I know that saying is wrong you cant choose your family but can choose your family of friends.
Because I picked you but you didnt want me to be.

I am sorry if i hurt you. I promise that I didnt mean to. I only wanted a family, I tried hard to see. But i guess I was blind for truthfully we never were a family.

oh and ps. I just want to say goodbye to the 4th family that never wanted me.
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look forward,But forget not the past for it has brought you this far~by Allan and Amanda




[This message has been edited by Angel in Flight (edited 01-21-2001).]

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Dopey Dope
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1 posted 2001-01-21 02:59 PM


Don't go. You have no reason to go. We all accept you for who you are. Just because some problems arose doesn't mean anything. A family goes through problems, we all know this. The thing is if we get through it. You're just giving up at the first strike of a problem. I don't know what you're expecting.......perfection maybe?.....You're not going to find it here....or anywhere else at that. If you want to be a part of this family you have to stick with it....stay the course. Families don't abandon one another, whether it be blood or friends.
Stay the course....



I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

Jenn Cirrincione
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2 posted 2001-01-21 03:14 PM


What do you mean?
We're still a family of friends. No worries.
I hope you aren't referring to the other poem, it was a simple mistake, they won't kick you out or anything.  
If that's not what you're referring to, then I'm sure it still isn't all that awful, no one is perfect!!
xoxo
Jenn


"A person can never get over a broken heart if they aren't willing to let go of all of the pieces."-- ??


Angel in Flight
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3 posted 2001-01-21 03:23 PM


Dear Jenn,

I know your heart is in the right place, but until you know how it is to be born and your parents calling you a mistake giving you up for adoption and not even give you a name. A doctor gave me my name. Then i go into a family my father dies my mother tells me she cant take care of me anymore so yet again i go for adoption. I go into mandi's family and am raped by my own father and the people that pay him to do whatever with me.I see mandi die with my own eyes. Then i come here and i feel like you all hate me. I dont wish to sound mean in anyway, but until you go through everything stated that i just said please dont tell me it can not be that bad, because truly you have no idea.
And i am sorry if i sounded mean i just am very upset. sorry< !signature-->

look forward,But forget not the past for it has brought you this far~by Allan and Amanda


[This message has been edited by Angel in Flight (edited 01-21-2001).]

Morouxshi San
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4 posted 2001-01-21 03:23 PM


...
if that little thing we had the other day was what caused this, you dont have to go. nobody will kick you out, specially not me.

i love your poetry i really do. and i have no problem with you never have.

you dont know me, so if youre leaving because of that incident youre making a huge mistake. in the boards i post the culmination of a lot of backstage thought, thought that many of you dont get because you dont know how i think, carly knows how i think, dope of course, and vreni is getting to know me better. as dope says, familys stick throgh the good times and the bad times. that was a bad time, theres no reason why to repeat it.


San, the wise
San, the dumb
San, the guy...

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5 posted 2001-01-21 03:28 PM


You CAN'T leave!!! I almost left once...but I couldn't stay gone for more than a week. This group we have here @ Passions is the sweetest bunch I've known online...Now I don't know the whole story about you wanting to leave...but I know that if your reason was anything like mine, leaving will be a huge mistake...


PLEASE STAY!!!!!!!!!


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Morouxshi San
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6 posted 2001-01-21 03:31 PM


i just read the second post.
angel you cant leave.

nobody hates you, youve found friends in some of the people who post including but not limited to allan (i had to use your name sorry allan).  i am sure as hell that allan doesnt want you to leave.



San, the wise
San, the dumb
San, the guy...

Jenn Cirrincione
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7 posted 2001-01-21 03:39 PM


Oh. I just read what happened in the other post, silly me to be so self-centered I thought it was 'cause of me. I'm sorry you went through such a rough time, and we are all here for you.
And please don't worry about the little spat in Allan's post, it's not the end-all, no one will kick you out!!! And I in no way meant to patronize you or anything, I do not know how your life has been, and I am not belittling it.
xoxo
Jenn


"A person can never get over a broken heart if they aren't willing to let go of all of the pieces."-- ??


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8 posted 2001-01-21 03:41 PM


I have nothing to say to Amanda in this post, I'm already discussing this with her on AIM.
But to all of you, I know that you love Amanda, she just has had a very difficult life.
The most important thing that she has ever known was a family, because she never really knew any family that she hasn't lost.
Lately she, and i agreed with this, felt that this forum was in conflict.  This was so devastating to her.  She could not stomach the idea that another family was being torn apart.
I know what she feels... that maybe she wasn't meant to have a family?  That she is a curse, destroying everyone that she has ever loved?
It must be a horrible feeling...
All that I can do is plead with all of you to demonstrate what a family really is.
Important as it is for us to express our love for Amanda in this time, it is even more important that we express our love for one another.  
We are a family.  I think that, somehow, a few of us forgot that.
Simply because we congregate here with one thing in common-- our poetry, and our emotions.  We are all such passionate people that, unfortunately, conflicts become messy very quickly.

So I will be the first to say that I am wiping the slate clean, killing every conflict that i ever had with any of you, as a demonstration of how much I care for Amanda.
We are a family again.  
I hope that you all follow suit.
I love all of you with every fibre of my being... more than i have ever loved any family that i have known.  

-Allan

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9 posted 2001-01-21 03:45 PM


Allan~
I must object. All families fight. I do not believe that Dopey, San, and Amanda's conflict abandons family ties. No one forgot this was a family of friends. We all know that it is. My sister and I fight all of the time. So do me and my mom.... it's just life. No one is tearing anything apart, I , for one, have no hard feelings toward anybody here. Everyone will be just fine.
xoxo
Jenn


"A person can never get over a broken heart if they aren't willing to let go of all of the pieces."-- ??


Kit McCallum
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10 posted 2001-01-21 04:47 PM


I've been noticing a bit of disharmony lately and noted this in another post. So if you don't mind, I'd like to share a few thoughts with you and everyone here Amanda.

If any members do have a disagreement, let's be courteous within the poetry forums and take any issues outside through ICQ or e-mail, where you can talk things out reasonably and effectively, or even take it to the "Alley" forum here at Passions ... lots of us complain over there, and have fun at the same time!

I truly believe that what we're experiencing here are simply some growing pains.  As more and more wonderful poets join our ranks, we all take a little time to get to know one another.

There's been a lot of new faces lately, and each and every person is welcome here at Passions. Once in a while, there are minor disagreements, just as there are in life. The fact that we have so many diverse personalities here merely reflects society in general.  

But here's where we "are" a little different at Passions. Not only are we a community of poets, but we do consider ourselves a "family".

Will there be disagreements sometimes? Yes ... Will there be some misunderstandings sometimes? Yes ... Will we all grow and learn from them? You bet!  

The reason I can say that with confidence, is seeing the wonderfully responsible, caring and mature responses above. There is a deep sincerity and committment amongst so many of you, to support one another, give caring advice, read and enjoy each other's work, and simply find your own place within this growing family. We are what we make this place everyone, so lets make it the home away from home we truly enjoy.

Big group hug everyone ... lets start having some fun!  Who's up for a snowball fight!  

Best wishes and hugs to all,
/Kit

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11 posted 2001-01-21 06:08 PM


I really cannot say anything right now because I have no idea what really is going on.

All i can say is, Amanda, you shouldn't give up on us so quickly.  Stay...speaking for everyone, i think we'd all love for you to stay

or else i'm coming to Hammond and drag you back into passions   lol

I see no changes, wake up in the morning I ask myself, "Is life worth living or should I blast myself" TUPAC SHAKUR



Morouxshi San
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12 posted 2001-01-21 07:28 PM


Kit id love to have a snow ball fight, but temperature down here is 80 degrees. so i dont think snow will survive.


San, the wise
San, the dumb
San, the guy...

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13 posted 2001-01-21 07:32 PM


Yea, me and san live in Puerto Rico. Forgive us for not having the proper weather. While you all fight, we'll be here drinking our dacarees and laying in hammocks on the beach.



I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

DancinQueen
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14 posted 2001-01-21 10:11 PM


hey I'll be in St. Maartin by you Dopey...well sorta by you. down there...newho, next Tues-Sunday!!    

**ohh...and yeah Angel dont take what happened the other day to heart. its ok! we all have our slipups. give everyone a chance


¤Sometimes the hardest thing to get over, is something you never really had¤

Kit McCallum
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15 posted 2001-01-21 11:02 PM


Hey Dopey ... SPLAT!!!

San ... SPLAT!!!

(imported snowballs ... no problem!, LOL)

Allan Riverwood
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16 posted 2001-01-21 11:12 PM


Okay, Kit, that's it!
It's about time you saw some Canadian snowballs!  They don't go splat, you do!
*crunch

Lakewalker
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17 posted 2001-01-22 05:20 PM


Please stay and give us a second chance.

Kit, I liked how you put that, growing pains, it's a great observation.  

Now wait a minute everyone, remember the last time a snowball fight was started in here????  Do you really want that happening again   ok *chucks his snowball stash over his fort at allan*

"Disagreements stimulate thought, thought stimulates action, and action stimulates life." --Lakewalker
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