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ATelamon
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since 2001-02-06
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0 posted 2001-03-22 01:02 AM


nonchalante matter of fact
three lines goodbye after
so much it makes mountains
and so you stand stating by stance

Everthing else every tear every moment
was callously unreal I cannot deny facts
I am the bad penny always turning up
my God the years passed hoping I would never guess

This is a why I will never understand
is it a pleasant thing to remove ones heart
is it trophy to hang on forgotten wall
you mourn not these years of completeness starvation

nor me at all so evident I must deserve
to be cast out never touching only falling
falling to unending agony is not Hell so described
burning every hope every promise our life foreseen

Inward I turn inward there still lives ideas I hope
and plan my life as completely unemotive shredded
as I stumble through unmotivated even to breathe
I could have sworn I've heard those words before

In my soulshaking I know there will be always
that question which rises to surface beckoning
I cannot stop my heart nor being me but how one
changes undeniable to "I stand" I cannot understand

In short to say why oh why did you ever
say you loved me what was I to you anything
you spoke said for yourself and stated it boldly
spoken by another and of all there will still be me

and this is where I lose it slavery abuse depravity
you prefer the most wretched of lives instead of me
or anyplace or one to love and care as best he can
why you lock your own cell door still behind you

only and in all you have been through weave given
yet even the greatest weave can be rent asunder
slashed burned to shreds unlike even the original

Tapestry Therefore I give you back your Green

Though it makes me stumble through bloodeyes
For tears have become so real they are wet
blood rolling down my cheeks unstoppable
I am I was I reached with all heart not enough

I no longer believe why should I believe anything
and me not even caring what path I fall upon

I am Sophocles eyes burnt blinded but not by my hand
trustlove I gave the pins make tears red pure blood

I see no longer as Oedipus I scream the unholy

But pardon if you would my bellowing self curse
I am desperately seeking a brail of life
and trying to see through this sea of red
unending haze of bloodstream forever blinding me



"The most redeeming facet of life is that we have the comfort of knowing it will end. Death doth love equally."

[This message has been edited by ATelamon (edited 03-22-2001).]

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Sunshine
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1 posted 2001-03-22 08:18 AM


"Tapestry Therefore I give you back your Green"

and unraveling, line by line, the pain in kind, from weary mind, I read, I read, and line by line, like cold soup, fed, and bled, the heartbreak of the real...

ATelamon...so very, very sad....

JLR
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since 2001-02-04
Posts 1785

2 posted 2001-03-22 02:24 PM


Such pain, brutal honesty...you have written it well.
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