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Mistletoe Angel
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0 posted 2001-03-17 02:30 PM


Lucky
By: Noah Eaton
3/17/01

I consider myself one of the luckiest people in the world
Having gone through so much depression before, and saving myself
I bless God and all the little leprechauns on this magical holiday
For keeping me here in this world, with the luck of the Irish

I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism when I was born
Many others like me can never speak or interact with others with this syndrome
I always feel down when I think of those poor innocent people with that disablement
It breaks my heart, but I feel extremely lucky living, speaking, being able to live

I went through elementary school, harassed by everyone, attacked by others, wrongfully accused
Always heard crude jokes I never did get, and always attacked, being called a moron or a loser
I never did show a trace of happiness back then, my heart was always broken, I was always so frustrated
But yet, I feel lucky, not turning into a bully, not hating everything and everyone

The contaminated media surrounded me everywhere I went, trying to seduce me with it’s darkness
Attempting to feed my soul with violence and a boatload of sins, endlessly trying to shake them away
Trying to convert my beliefs, from a dreamer to a goner
God bless you for keeping me strong and helping me believe in myself

I’d never thought it would get this bad, I always felt so dead and worthless
I wanted to commit suicide, no one ever loved me, not even myself, I couldn’t stand living here
I wanted to jump off a cliff, thank God my fate and fear drove me back
I am lucky for not making the jump, for I now know how much joy there really is, and I could have missed it all

I consider myself one of the luckiest people in the world
I am lucky to be me, I am lucky to have this opportunity to live a fruitful life
I am lucky I know all of you wonderful poets, who remind me I do have friends out there
And I know you are all lucky to know me too!

Now I look to the future, with a new point of view
I strongly hope that the love of my life will be lucky to have me
I hope to be lucky to find a place into this world in which there is dignity in
Thank you God, thank you for saving me, for helping me love myself


© Copyright 2001 Nadia Lockheart - All Rights Reserved
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1 posted 2001-03-17 02:52 PM


Thank you for writing this poem. I hope that someone else will read it, who needs to be as strong as you are and be inspired by it. You must be so proud of what you have already accomplished. I hope that life will just get better and easier for you from now on.

Betty Lou Hebert

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2 posted 2001-03-17 04:22 PM


Oh, my dear I almost missed this. How brave you are and you have come to the right place. All here is love and compassion. My best to you. None of us are at fault for what we were born with, but we must do the best we can with what we have. All my love to you and a lovely St. Patrick's day. Joyce
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