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An Angel's Betrayal....
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An Angel's Betrayal.... |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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Passion Friends: i know i said i was "leaving"...but i felt the urgent need to write today...the feelings just came rushing out of me, and i wanted to share it with all of you...pardon me for the sadness, and the anger...but tis how i feel these days. love ya all amy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ An Angel's Betrayal How could you go and do this I never thought you'd be the one To make my heart and soul feel broken The very spirit of me is undone-- You were the one I trusted The one I loved with all my heart My angel that I said would never hurt me We pledged..."till death do us part"-- I know that you need help And that you didn't do this intentionally But the pain is still there Hot and searing, consuming..overwhelming-- Wishing the world would swallow me up And everyone would let me be When all I want is someone to love me Now blinded by overflowing tears, I can no longer see-- You were my angel The one I gave my everything to Now I sit alone shattered And to think of how much I trusted you-- Words can not describe The dull ache that I feel My heart, soul, body You completely did steal Now an empty shell of a woman I wonder where I go from here As I swallow back my pride And release another tear All I ever asked from you Was to be honest and fair To treat me with respect Understand me, and show that you care You pushed me away To reel me back in But always hiding who you were from me You kept it hidden within How do I ever love again Who do I trust or believe When all I know is broken I've been tortured and decieved I shout to the heavens But the world has kept on turning No one cares about me any longer My heart forever burning It was hard to trust in the first place You knew how fragile I was, like finely woven lace Might as well have took a gun to my head Perhaps then I'd at least still have some grace My pillow at night And Mr Teddy Bear too Catch all the tears that flow from my eyes Suddenly becoming my best friends, no longer is that person you You want to remain friends Say that you are sorry for what you've done Now you're going to therapy That doesn't change a thing though, not a single one People tell me to dust myself off And try again at love That I am stronger than I think I feel weak and broken, anything but tough-- Now two angels have left me But for very different reasons I suppose I'm to roll with the punches And grow and learn with the passing seasons-- After I've cried a few rivers And my eyes can cry no more I can face the world again Pick myself up off the floor Maybe I am uncapable of loving again I suppose only time will tell All I know right now is My heart and soul feel like they are in living hell I do forgive you though And wish you another pair of angel wings to fly But please turn around now and walk out the door I don't want you to see me cry Amy M. Kennedy p.s. im not back guys...but this had to be written. "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Amy dear heart, I can so relate to this love, you have written this with passion and all your feelings and in a way it is truly an amazing piece. I'd really like to take away all the pain and the hurt from you love, but love comes and goes where it will. All I know is that right now you must feel utterly dead. If you need a shoulder then lean on me, and remember you are loved and will ever be a precious part of your family here. Wonderful work love Take care love Mushy  Take back the hope you gave,- I claim Only a memory of the same Robert Browning |
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dragonpoe Senior Member
since 2000-11-12
Posts 608Palm Bay, Florida |
A shame you won't be back for more of these writes. This was full of emotion and a great display of facing your pain and working through it. Even if you can't post.. Keep writing..  With the word, I am mighty, with the pen I am free.. dragonpoe |
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Celeste Senior Member
since 2000-11-11
Posts 597 |
Amy, part of the reason I was thrilled to come back was to read your poetry again, so I was really sad when you said you were leaving. Your writing really touched me. I feel for you though and wanted as I'm sure everyone will, to make sure you realize how much everyone cares. From your poem I can tell your world's been shattered, which is so incredibly hard to go through. And so you will always be in my prayers......... And I do hope you'll come back now and then, if only for the release of writing some of your emotions out. *gentle hug* Kellie To capture and live a moment is truly living |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
since you already know all I would say to this ... I will just say ... you are much stronger and wiser than you know... and just like your poetry never leaves you.. neither will your ability to love again. write it out sweetie... we heal and grow with every line ... love ya am  Where the touch of the lover ends And the soul of the friend begins There's a need to be separate and a need to be one And a struggle neither wins |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Amy, I have to respond to this. I know about leaving Passions to take the time to recover and heal. Your emotional pain in these words was stabbing and real. I too, am trying desperately not to write and post. It’s hard, you feel alone don’t you? But sometimes you just have to let it out and that’s what you did here!!! Only in death do we escape the element of pain involved in loving anyone. Only in the separation from life are we truly dead. You are alive, and with that comes the pain and also the increasing joy that comes with living and writing the beautiful poetry that we are gifted wtth and can be privileged to read. God bless you and keep you safe and know that you are not alone! "I walked beside the evening sea and dreamed a dream that could not be." George William Curtis |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Enjoyed reading this emotion piece...take care of your heart and when love fails look to friendships...we all need friends...even the one that disappointed you...James |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
it's okay Amy. . . any time. . . you're always welcome back you know that. . . this is superb writing from you. . . I know that you had to get it all out and that's good. . . just keep going. . . you'll get there. . . I know that you will. . . we'll always be here if you need us. . . --------------------------------------------------------- To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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snowpants Member Elite
since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061KS |
'After I've cried a few rivers And my eyes can cry no more I can face the world again Pick myself up off the floor' Aims, my dear friend...I really don't have much to say to this, other than you've penned your emotions excellently...and, that I know you...you are able to pick yourself up again after you're done crying, and I'll tell you what...I'll be there to help you back on your feet, BUT, I hope you already knew that. ttys, girlie! -e still~~~~~~~24/7/365(366) everytime I close my eyes, I see your face, I taste you on my lips... every night I fantasize that I can feel you on my fingertips... |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Amy, if you ever need to talk please feel free to e-mail me, I know the feeling you have described here far too well...take care, sweetheart. "I walked beside the evening sea and dreamed a dream that could not be." George William Curtis |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Marsha-- Thank you my sweet friend for your understanding and support. Our chat today cheered me up some. Thanks for listening and for just being you. Your friendship and love is much appreciated. Take care! Dragonpoe-- What a lovely thing to say. Thank you And don't worry...someday I will return here to Passions. Until the meantime when the mood strikes me I'll write....Take care and thanks for reading and replying.Dreamkeepr-- Wow! I am beyond words...shocked...it's an honor that I'm one of the reasons you came back . How incredibly sweet of you to say sweetie. Thank you for the prayers friend. And yes someday I will be returning "home" So good to see you back again. We have missed you! Jan-- Well what do I say to you dear friend? You are the one whose been here for me all along. I thank you so much for your wonderful friendship and love. Thanks for always believing in me...and seeing the things I apparently can't. It's an honor to be your sunshine girl. I love ya very much!! Katheleen-- seems you know me well through my work. I am trying to stay away from here because of all the emotions and stuff I'm going through. I don't want it to come out negatively or anything. But I felt this overwhelming urge to write. And yes I feel alone. I am sorry that you can relate to this type of pain. And I just might take you up on that email offer. Thanks a lot hon! James-- You are very wise. Some very true words you have penned here my poet friend. Thanks for always having a kind reply for me. And yes we all need friends. That is so true John-- You are a doll! I just love ya to pieces And you know how I feel about ya as both a poet and a friend. You are remarkable. Thanks so much for all you've done/do. Kris-- Sweetie thanks for such a beautiful response. You don't have to say anything. Just being here for me has meant the world to me. You are a wonderful friend who I've come to treasure and cherish very much. Anytime you need me, call on me....I know I got a ton of favors to return Thanks for your encouragement, support, love and friendship. You mean the world to me!!Thank you all! Love me "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." |
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Acies
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Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-07
Posts 7665Twilight Zone |
I'm sorry to see that you are going thru such hurt I really don't know you so all I can really say is keep your head up, stay strong So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this, and this give life to thee." W.S. |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
I can certainly understand the negativity but someone told me once that there is every emotion in poetry, I myself, haven't been wanting to bring anyone down so I completely understand this but I also know the urge and need for a writer to express is like breathing. Here anytime for you. Take care! "When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey." Laurie Lee |
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