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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA 
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Broken I cry. Hot tears carelessly etching their way into this greiving heart. Mourning the sudden death of love, The love I thought you felt. The love I thought illuminated your heart. I weep, whispering good-bye to my soul, torn in half by foolishly believing in this myth called love. I'm ashamed. Ashamed for letting myself fall, allowing myself to believe your words. Did you ever love me like you said? Or were my emotions a game to you, just a simple pass time? Wasn't I everything that you needed? Didn't I fill you with warmth and love The way you did me? I'm broken. I'm broken and don't know how to begin to fix myself, to make all this pain, the sorow go away. Broken from trying to hold on, clingly desperately to the bond of love I thought we shared, that I thought exsisted. My heart lies shattered around me, a jagged pile of fear and hurt. I'm scared. Scared of living without you, frightened of not knowing how. I'm curious about what I did wrong, wondering if i'm even worth someone's love. I'm scared I wont be able to love again, these walls around my heart unbreakable. I'm terrified of living this now lonely exsistance. Am I strong enough? I'm alone. So many emotions flooding my thoughts with such an overwhelming force. Curled into a ball, I wait for sleep, the only source of escape... into my dreams. There I can see you as if you've never left. Unfeeling to the pain in my heart and soul. Numb to the tears that fall, even in sleep. [This message has been edited by rosepetals25 (edited 02-04-2001).] |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
Been there. Yet, I have to say, my encounter occurred 5 days after I asked the Lord to be Lord of my life. I know that is the only thing that got me through without fully crumbling. God bless you in your loss. |
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LoveBug
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Member Elite
since 2000-01-08
Posts 4697 |
This is such a horrible situation, losing love like this. I know how you feel. I hope writing this beautiful expression and sharing it with us helps the pain.  "Where there is great love there are always miracles" -Cather "Love heals everything, and love is all there is"- Zukav |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
my goodness RP ... such wrenchingly beautiful expressions of emotion... you write this in such a way that I held my breath while reading ... sending hugs your way ... and keep writing it out.. with every word you'll heal and grow stronger take care dear poetess. If my slight Muse do please these curious days ... The pain be mine ... but thine shall be the praise. ~Shakespeare~ |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Vas - Thank you for stopping in to read and your kind words. Lovebug - If I can help anyone not feel alone, I am very grateful. Thanks for stopping in. Janet - Your compliments mean so much to me, as they always do. I'm glad you liked it and it affected you. I will always be writing.. it is my only form of therapy that seems to work. Hugs right back you. |
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