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Lisann
Member

since 2001-01-31

Posts 350

0 posted 2001-01-31 11:50 PM

Hi there this is my first entry and I'd like to prepare you for this poem by explaining it first.
I am a woman who was raped and molested for several years and because of this childhood I have never ever developed friendships.  I never trusted anyone.  ever.   However, recently  I met a woman who has become very special to me and I've grown to care for her very much.  It is not a romantic caring just one of friendship.  I have not yet told her this but I wrote this poem for her.  Please read it and let me know if you understand it.  If you like it.  Do I make my feelings clear enough?  will she understand it?  should I give it
to her?

MY  HEARTS  PARADOX

Where there had once only been
Fearful emptiness,
there is now unfolding
a wealth of vitality.
A beauty unearthed and perfected.
Brought to light
as if by flicking on  a switch.

I've discovered the glorious healing force of the universe.
THE FORCE OF LOVE.

I'm breaking the chains of old beliefs.
Fears that kept me in bondage.
I'm growing toward a more fullfilling,
more enriched life.

I realize now that I have been clutching my past
so tightly to my chest
that I have left my arms too full to embrace
the present.
I've turned people into objects of my game
rather than subjects of my heart.

The curtains of my heart are unfolding
Like the petals on a flower.
Illuminating my soul,
Exposing the core of my being.

The walls of my heart
are crumbling around me,
Leaving me open and afraid.
I see your outstretched hand
reaching out to me
trembling with kindness
yet,
I am afraid to take it;

But if you dig deep within yourself
You will reappear with a key
this key will open up my heart
when I am feeling afraid.

Here is how to care for me
when I am with fear.
Move slowly,
as if approaching a butterfly,
Have gentle, calm eyes.
Stay centered from my panic.
Then,
when we reach this place of safety
JUST HOLD ME!

Did anyone understand this?  Did I make my feelings clear enough or  was it hard to comprehend?  Should I give it to her?
Any and all responsed will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

1 posted 2001-02-01 12:00 PM

First~ Welcome!

Second~ this is so touching.......I love this!
I hope you do give it to your friend......I'm sure she'll understand that it's just friendship not romance

It's good to love your friends.......and it's good to tell them that you love them.....

I'm so sorry about your childhood.......I hope you keep breaking down that wall........good luck. I hope to read more from you........this is the BEST place to share your heart through writing and friendships.

-SEA

laryalee
Member

since 2000-06-19

Posts 352
Alberta, Canada

2 posted 2001-02-01 12:12 PM

Lisann, this is well-defined and a very sensitive poem....it reflects not only your friendship but the beginning of your healing....
It will be fully understood by your friend, and I know she will cherish it.
And do continue to write!
My thoughts are with you.
Lary

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

3 posted 2001-02-01 12:24 PM

I did understand and emphasize... e mail me, and I will explain further? Love to you.

Balladeer

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since 1999-06-05

Posts 25505
Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA

4 posted 2001-02-01 12:29 PM

Absolutely give it to her. It is very well written, sincere and loving in the right way. I have no doubt she will appreciate it greatly....

Lisann
Member

since 2001-01-31

Posts 350

5 posted 2001-02-01 10:27 PM

Thank you for your replies. It is really hard for me to express myself verbally. Like most poets I do it much better in writing but than I'm never sure if I should give it to the person that it was intended for. So thank you everyone for your opinions. I will let you all know how it goes.

Mother_Earth
Senior Member

since 2000-11-20

Posts 1370
1/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan

6 posted 2001-02-01 10:53 PM

Lisann, welcome ! I haven't been here very long and have found it is a great place to try new things and to get answers to hard questions. You are not alone with your past. But you are on the right track in opening up to the world. It can be scarry, but you have made a giant step by finding a friend you want to open up to. Show her and keep the the lines of comunications open. This is beautiful and hope to see much more from you. Hugs, ME

Lisann
Member

since 2001-01-31

Posts 350

7 posted 2001-02-02 12:03 PM

Hey Laryalee. I am also from Canada. Man is the internet weird. You meet people from every part of the world. That is soooo cool.

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