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It all started when the sadness set in
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It all started when the sadness set in |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298
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I used to think, think of how it would soon be better, think of what it would be like to live happy, to breathe without feeling the very air I breathe being sucked away. I used to want to get rid of the hate that gave me reason to live, but I never figured out how. I wanted more than anything to be free. I used to write, I wrote myself wings and on paper I flew free. I wrote my fury, it helped me bury the hate deep enough to not think about it as much. I wrote myself smiles and about my best friend, who helped me learn to like me. I wrote about the pieces of me when that same friend found somewhere else to be. I wrote as I gathered what was left and once again looked for smiles. I thought of what I had left I thought of why's to go on and wherefore's to not place blame, but I stopped all that thinking when the sadness set in. I no longer remember why I get up every morning, why I continue to try. Along the way somewhere, I lost my dream. These nights find me sitting, staring long unthinking hours into the dark, the cold my only prompt. I add another log to the fire and tuck my arms into the bend of my knees... right now, it is enough just to stay warm. |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Can't believe a poem this rich in emotion slipped by so many. We don't stop writing when sadness sets in...that's when the writing becomes more important than ever. I know the feeling of emptiness that sadness brings....it is the hardest enemy to fight...writing it out is our weapon....don't ever stop |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
We must be sisters...(wink) |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
*big grins for serenity* yep, I think so...thanks girl  baladeer, thank you so much for your kind comments.....means a lot coming from you |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Jellybeans love, didn't I say that you would write such words that would encompass such wonder and feeling that I would pale to a candle beside your sun. This is sooo absolutely wonderful and I love it, I truly do. I know you'll think well I've seen Mushy leaving the same message all over the place. But in truth I only leave messages of love on those that I actually do. Ask anyone they will all tell you, (probably dreadful untruths about me, but also that I am always honest!) And don't believe the untruths, love, I'm not dangerous, enthusiastic always yes, exuberant on occasions but never really dangerous. Wonderful work Take care love Mushy  Take back the hope you gave,- I claim Only a memory of the same Robert Browning |
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laryalee Member
since 2000-06-19
Posts 352Alberta, Canada |
This tugs at my heartstrings, cliched as that may sound. The aura of this poem is so sad, but it also speaks about a survivor. And again, hating to use another cliche - life is indeed a circle...coming around again will be the smiles and the freedom, although the searching never ends. Lary |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Yes, writing can be very theraputic in fighting emptiness and sadness and hopefully, can heal others as well. I'm sorry I didn't read this sooner! Kathleen |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
Marsha, laralee, and Irish Rose, thank you so much, I have been in the worst dry spell I have had since I started writing and hadn't written much for months, and so I finally sat down and tried to write about why I don't write...and yes the writing helps, just hoping I find as many smiles to write about as I have tears |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Enjoyed reading your poem...James |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
This poem touches me deeply... it hurts... better throw another log on that fire, for I've got the shivers. You've created perfection, painful as it is... But if it didn't flow so well, I'd swear you'd borrowed my diary. *S* |
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Nate Dogg Senior Member
since 1999-11-15
Posts 1658Georgia, Fulton |
Wow, jellybeans the aurora of this piece is so sad that it's very painful to read as well as it's so ..painful to read all these people underrating your poem.....well I'm gonna open my big mouth and give this piece word of excellency cause it's so powerful...that I felt it as soon as I read the first word! Peace, Nathan |
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David2 Member
since 2000-03-22
Posts 407 |
This is an extremely moving work. It is a true window into someone's soul. I enjoyed it immensely. Thank you, David2 |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
jmlee, suthern, nate dogg, david, gotta give thank you's for this one before I head out, just let me tell you that your comments touch me as much or more as my poem did you thank you from my heart |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Hey, I like jellybeans and I like what you write. It would be sader still to just sit and think. Sy |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you seymore, and yes you are entirely right |
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