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Honeybee
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since 1999-12-26
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Ontario, CANADA

0 posted 2000-12-31 02:00 PM




I suppose you could say that New Year's has brought out this melancholy state of mind


~IF YOU LOOK AT ME WITH EYES CLOSED~


If just once
you looked at me with eyes closed
then you would not see the pain
of my iced heart freeze the air around me
causing the once delicately blended colours of my tresses and body
to fade and melt into somber rainbows

then you would not see the ugliness of time's cruelty upon my brow
nor would you see the scars and mangled flesh
the regrets worn in my frown
or my piercing eyes stare through you
seeking solace
screaming for peace
yet refusing it

If you could see me with eyes closed
you would not know the truth in my movement
the truth that I have run endless circles around
desperate to escape it's harsh reality
yet still, it is true...
that I am worthless

then you would not see the sickly blue-mauve  fingertips
from the days warmth was devoured out from life's vultures
then you would not see the rumble of defeat
race through my fingers
to break in pieces upon my feet
you would not see the bruises upon my knees
from the pressure of kneeling in prayer
now meaningless pleas
that never reached the heavens
or so I convince myself
for it is better to believe the appeasing lie
that you never knew of such prayers
rather than face the fact that you ignored my pain
that you just didn't care

you would not see that you have given me more than I can handle

If just once
you closed your eyes to me
you would not be forced to see the plethera of tears from many nightfalls before
now evident in my heavy lids
stained from trying to hold their acidic sadness in
yet failing
succombing to their intensity
you would not see the december of my years
haunting me
worn like a ghostly trenchcoat
by pale skin

Maybe if instead you felt my being
placed your hand upon my chest
you would feel my heartbeat
fractured though it may seem
and know that I too, have spirit and dreams and cares dwelling inside
those same miracles you breathed within my soul
at the dawning of my existence
here on earth

If only you could really see me with eyes closed
then superficiality would not guide such eyes
to deem me unworthy of love and joy
or undeserving of a chance to begin anew
all of a sudden
I would be a someone
I'd stand tall
and maybe the small corners of my mouth
would lift up to reveal a smile

perhaps Lord
if you look at me with eyes closed
you would finally love me
and forget for a passing moment
that I am not a mistake
then maybe
just maybe
you could envision beauty at last
and paint me a picture
to freedom...

*By Melissa Honeybee*


The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams



© Copyright 2000 Melissa P. Long-Monette - All Rights Reserved
Denise
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since 1999-08-22
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1 posted 2000-12-31 02:10 PM


Ah, Melissa, this is sooooo sad. Very well expressed. I'm sure we've all felt this way at one time or another. I know I have. Now, close your eyes and envison His outstretched arms of love open wide for you, no matter the circumstances of life, no matter how insignificant you imagine yourself to be. He hears every word, feels every tear and crys along with you. *HUGS*

Denise

Sven
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2 posted 2000-12-31 02:47 PM


if I look at you with eyes closed
I see the light of power around you
arms open, holding you close, protecting you

if I look at you with eyes closed
I hear your voice crying in the night
being answered by one that can dry any tear

but if I look at you with eyes closed
I cannot read your words
from your heart and from your soul, they speak of your heart

and if I look at you with eyes closed
I cannot see your face
full of life despite the scars, smiling amid the darkness

open your eyes and see that you are loved
open your eyes and see that you are cared for
and that the angels above see you as you are
a being of light
     a being of love
for they too, have opened their eyes. . .

Hugs to you my wonderful friend. . .  

------------------------------------------------------




That which gives light must endure burning
--Victor Frankl


Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
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Ontario, Canada
3 posted 2000-12-31 02:51 PM


This was incredibly moving Melissa ... powerfully written, with a depth of sadness that grips me to the core. Excellent expression!

Best wishes and hugs,
/Kit

Honeybee
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since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372
Ontario, CANADA
4 posted 2000-12-31 03:06 PM



Denise - Thank you for your support and encouragement and for understanding this piece

Sven - Your poem made me smile, thank you for being my friend  

Kit - Thank you for your words, I'm touched that it moved you, this was a poem that I just had to write



The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams



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