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Michael
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0 posted 11-30-2000 02:27 PM       View Profile for Michael   Email Michael   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions  View IP for Michael

INSIDE OF ME


What is this thing that I can’t see?
This thing that grows inside of me.
I bear the scar, been cut before,
But now this thing’s come back for more…
…As all my life’s put to the test
Of one demon I’ll never best,
…As soon they’ll raise their blades, again,
To purge me of my mortal sin.

While mirrors bring me no surprise,
An empty man with vapid eyes,
I count my days in full duress
Of knowing few who’ll garner less.
For what’s Reality avail
To those whom Immunity fail?
But lack of choice and lack of chance
In mirrors with no backward glance.

If in time-riven dreams of play
Or childhood memories slipped away -
If in the barren waste of hope
From which I feign the strength to cope -
I’ll give no selfish cries of “why”,
For all, I know, in time must die…
But give my time the best I can
For after all, I’m just a man.

Yet while they’re deep inside my chest,
Let all demons be laid to rest.
Let all who know me understand
I came to this, not of my hand -
But of a choice I would not grieve,
For above all, I do “believe”…
And despite what the doctors see,
There’s life, in love, inside of me.


Michael Anderson



But dreams of those who dream as I,
Aspiringly, are damned and die.


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1 posted 11-30-2000 02:34 PM       View Profile for Startime   Email Startime   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Startime's Home Page   View IP for Startime

This beautiful poem is proof that the is indeed much love inside of you. Wonderful read here, my friend. Thank you so very much for the read.

Love I leave with you my friend whether it be in your life or of yet the essense of your dreams. [URL=http://path2riches.com]http://path2riches.com
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2 posted 11-30-2000 02:37 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

Okay...forgive me while I type a "wow".

And secondly, please reassure us that you okay.

Finally, this is very moving and poignantly written. Was the "wine" at my poetic feast today. Smiles to you. Incredible, as always.
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3 posted 11-30-2000 02:40 PM       View Profile for Gemini   Email Gemini   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Gemini

Michael-Why does there have to be so much hurt in life?, yet you express it well. Sometimes it can't be controlled and it's not by our choice.  These are the days you take a day at a time and are thankful for simple things in life, the smile or hug of a child can take away some of the hurt. Here's wishing you happiness and hugs.  Take care, my friend.
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4 posted 11-30-2000 02:57 PM       View Profile for bestgirl911   Email bestgirl911   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for bestgirl911

Michael...

Lovely read and flows beautifully.
Hope all is well, and be sure to enjoy those simple things.

Best
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5 posted 11-30-2000 03:03 PM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

What is this thing that I can’t see?
This thing that grows inside of me.
I bear the scar, been cut before,
But now this thing’s come back for more…
…As all my life’s put to the test
Of one demon I’ll never best,
…As soon they’ll raise their blades, again,
To purge me of my mortal sin.

While mirrors bring me no surprise,
An empty man with vapid eyes,
I count my days in full duress
Of knowing few who’ll garner less.
For what’s Reality avail
To those whom Immunity fail?
But lack of choice and lack of chance
In mirrors with no backward glance.
================
’ll give no selfish cries of “why”,
For all, I know, in time must die…
But give my time the best I can
For after all, I’m just a man.

Yet while they’re deep inside my chest,
Let all demons be laid to rest.
Let all who know me understand
I came to this, not of my hand -
But of a choice I would not grieve,
For above all, I do “believe”…
And despite what the doctors see,
There’s life, in love, inside of me.
===================
God you break my heart when you write like this ...
the depth of which you bleed poetically still amazes and awes me..even after all this time ...
and always touches and cuts deep.
M, you already know how I feel about the emotions of this poem...and why...

"Let all who know me understand
I came to this, not of my hand -
But of a choice I would not grieve,
For above all, I do “believe”…
And despite what the doctors see,
There’s life, in love, inside of me."

I do know and I do believe...I have seen your light in your words, in your poetry.
I dont doubt you for a second ...
and the best part of all is the line above where you say you believe in you.
YOU are a gift...so is your poetry.
take care of you,
jm




Sprayed across my heart and hers
Danced butterflies in the wild
This angel, this woman ,
who loves me with the innocence of a child.
~DeVante~
Michael
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Startime, Nice to meet you.  Thank you very much for the compliment.

serenity, Well, I'd like to reassure you all is o.k. but I can't at this point.  A mass of some sort has developed in my chest.  I will be having yet another surgery come Monday to remove it.  What it is / what exactly has caused it remains to be seen.  Will keep you all posted.

Gemini, There is MUCH hurt to life, indeed.  Sometimes it seems more so fore some than others too - but it's the hurt that makes you appreciate all those little things so much more in the end I think.  There is much more to be thankful for than the hurt could ever erase, at least in my case.     Thank you.

bestgirl, All is as well as can be expected.  At least I don't have to go through any of this alone... that would truly be devistating to me.

Janet, You are a true friend.  You are one who helped me find the light in my own poetry even when I didn't always want to see it.  Thank you, dear.  


...and thank you all for the kind replies.


Michael

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The obviously genuine suffering in this poem makes it very moving.I hope things work out for you.All the best.

Tony.

'Humankind cannot bear too much reality' T.S.Eliot
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Michael, PLEASE let us know what's going on.. as always your writing is superb. I'm glad to read you here again.    
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9 posted 11-30-2000 07:19 PM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

~Hands Of Healing~

I wish for hands of healing ...
for an empowered, gentle touch.
So that I might lay my hands on you,
so that I might be your crutch.

I wish for understanding eyes ...
for vision to see on thru.
So that I might help you to see,so that thru my eyes
you might finally see the light that shines in you.

I wish for a forgiving heart ...
for the gift of unconditional love so true.
So that I might share this gift so rare,
so that love's venial touch would then embrace you.

I wish for an enchanted poets pen ...
for which to write perfect rhyme and verse.
So that I might find the words to say,
so that I might write the lines that would free you of this curse.

All these things I hope and pray for ...
all these things I ask for on bended knee.
So that I might spare you all this pain,
so that I might find the way to set your heart free.

Janet Marie


Michael,
I am so sorry your having to go thru this again.
please do keep us updated,
and you already know we hold you in our thoughts and prayers.
Quiet comfort my friend,
much love to you both.
take care of each other
(I know you will) more quiet comfort  
me



Sprayed across my heart and hers
Danced butterflies in the wild
This angel, this woman ,
who loves me with the innocence of a child.
~DeVante~
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10 posted 11-30-2000 07:22 PM       View Profile for Irish Rose   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Irish Rose

"For after all, I’m just a man."

This line is my favorite line because if you change the last word to woman it would be describing my feelings perfectly.

What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I have read in my life.

Walt Whitman


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11 posted 11-30-2000 07:47 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

Michael...(and Linda)...I am so sorry to hear this...my prayers are with both of you.

Hugs, and candles lit. Please, let us know.
My love and hopes are with you.
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12 posted 11-30-2000 07:50 PM       View Profile for Denise   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Denise

I'll keep you in my prayers, Michael. Excellent writing. It's so good to see you here again.

Denise
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Michael I'm sorry to hear this. You know I'll have you in my prayers buddy. May God reign in your life, and the demons be gone, and all be well.  God bless you, keep us updated!

<*\\\><

I know not what the future holds,
but I know Who holds the future.

I don't question YOUR existance - GOD

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Michael...

The poem is great, of course - Let's find some time to talk before the weekend's over, all righty my friend???  You're not alone by a long shot...
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Michael, you will be in my prayers. Hope everything goes well with your surgery.

Great read...loved the last lines. There's always more to us than our physical being.
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Michael--I believe that the things that happen to us in life are lessons...especially the difficult ones...your strength of spirit is evident in your words...many blessings to you during this difficult time.
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Michael,

Powerful words of hope and affirmation in this one.  I hope all goes well with your surgery.  Wonderful writing.  

Lone Wolf


Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats
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Michael~
I lift your name to Him in prayer for blessings and care.
*Hugs*
~*Marge*~


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19 posted 11-30-2000 09:36 PM       View Profile for Balladeer   Email Balladeer   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Balladeer's Home Page   View IP for Balladeer

Sending good thoughts your way, Michael..

this is excellent writing...
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Oh Michael...I don't even know what to say.  You've blessed me with your friendship and with your guidance when I've needed it, you write phenomenal poetry, and you're a wondrous person.  This is poignant and sad my friend...I'll keep you in my heart and in my prayers.  I hope that all goes well.  

*Krista Knutson*

"One can never consent to creep when one feels an impulse to soar."
Helen Keller

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Michael, if I clap my hands, and say I believe will I then see the love too?

Karilea
If I whisper, will you listen?...
I would rather be silent and write, than speak loudly and be bound.
KRJ



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Michael ... this is so poetically beautiful and so understandably sad. My prayers and thoughts are with you and Linda in this difficult time, take care ...

Best wishes,
/Kit
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Michael* I've been in "awe" of your writing
since the very first days I came to passions
and this poem is the reason why...you speak
to my heart and you pour out yours...all I
can say Michael is that I understand...and
tell you that yes my friend...you DO deserve
Love and Life...and you'll be in my prayers.


The best and most beautiful things
in the world cannot be seen or even touched
---- they must be felt with the heart~
*??*
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24 posted 11-30-2000 10:23 PM       View Profile for RainbowGirl   Email RainbowGirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit RainbowGirl's Home Page   View IP for RainbowGirl

Big HUSG sweetheart....hang in there and you know scars are added bits of personality...soul maps of who we are, where we've been, where we're going and the added treasure of who we'll be when we get there, others just have to follow the route...  

HUSG

[This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 11-30-2000).]
 
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