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Less Than Needed |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas 
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Less Than Needed We were having cocktails, on the veranda, chewing our cud, talkin' old times, hell, man, we were enjoying ourselves, when She walked in. Prim, proper, prissy and pretty as I'd ever seen her; that's right, the memory from my past, the one I hated to love, loved to hate, and wished would drop out of the storage bank of my brain; you know... leave me alone, go away, damn! Do anything but bother me. I ignored her; from the corner of my eye, following her every movement, the way she seemed to attract every molecule of light, the way everyone seemed to sit a little taller, straighten their clothes, wipe the water rings off their tables; the way she smiled flashing those perfect, white teeth… I ignored her; chug-a-lugged my drink, waved for the waiter, choked when she glanced my way, drank my buddy's beer. Later, still ignoring her from the corner of my eye, she whom I adored more than life, whom gave me her all, whom I walked out on, back to my dirty t-shirts, torn jeans, worn-out tennis shoes, multiple beers, hang-on friends and pissant ways... Later, she sent me a note. "I still love you", it said. I ignored her from the back of my head, chug-a-lugged my beer, several more... she deserved so much more than me; my god, what a way to spend Thanksgiving Day. So I went home, ignoring her until she left, died when she touched my shoulder in passing, clung to the comments from round the table... "Hang in there, buddy…hold tight man...don't let her see you hurt...," and almost ripped off a head that said "*****!", and pasted her note along with all the others on the glass in the frame that held her picture on the table next to my bed. Almost died, but didn't, couldn't; haven't suffered enough yet. Haven't paid for the hurt I've caused. Haven't atonned for injuring an Angel. I ignored her picture smiling lovingly at me; with tears blurring the image, I swallowed more beer, burped, "I love you too," I said. w. james beard, jr. © November, 2000 [This message has been edited by jwesley (edited 11-26-2000).] |
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Paula Finn Member Ascendant
since 2000-06-17
Posts 5546missouri |
Oh OH this just hurts to the bottom of my heart...you cant keep punishing yourself if she is willing to forgive you...LET HER |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Thanks Paula, again, not me...but I did pass the word (same thing I've been saying to this person), just writing from his perspective. |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
JWesley~ Outstanding!! It's not always easy to write from another's perspecive, but you've done a wonderful job here. You made me cry, wishing he wasn't such a fool, and that he would just accept her love and give it back. Excellent poem.  -SEA |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Jwesley, this is one hell of a write from you. Fantastic writing, and from someone elses perspective too, you have written this just how it feels. Like Circe, this made my eyes all misty. I really love this one, a great poem, and fabulous work. Take care Mushy Marsha Take back the hope you gave,- I claim Only a memory of the same Robert Browning |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Thank you SEA! And Marsha! Really glad you liked it. Working on one from HER side of the fence too. jwesley |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
jwesley--this is very real and well done...with all the feeling of a scene played out. Might make a good short story. |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
JW~ this is excellent! you have a very talented gift to be able to write so well from another's perspective m'friend. i been admiring your work now through several different poems and am amazed at the heart and soul you put into each one! take care. ~amy~ |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
JW* This piece blew me away...I was in a different direction when I began reading and you pulled me through the rollercoaster of emotions hanging onto every word. This is excellent writing...and your last lines...may I just stand back in awe of this!! Into my library dear sir!! The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched ---- they must be felt with the heart~ *??* |
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