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Mother, Why did You Leave Then?
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio 
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November 13, 1997 What's today? Just another day. The sun is shining, the wind is blowing, in my face. But today is a day that I wont ever forget. Today's the day my mom committed suicide. Today's the day she left me all alone. Out of all the times she hit or hurt me. Today's the worst day of my life. Cause today's the day she left me all alone. Out of all the times she never came when I cried out for her. Out of all the times she told me I was the cause of all her problems. Out of all the times... This one time I'll never forget, this is the time she left me all alone. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Very sad I can never know how you feel just that my heart goes out to you in this turbulent old world...and that you are to be commended for having the courage to write your feelings down...for that God bless you forever.....take care...ethome... |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
ethome Thank you so much...means a lot to get a post, especially with this poem being so significant to the day and time. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34 |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
Oh sweetie...I don't even know what to say...or if there is anything I can say to ease the pain you must have in your heart...Your words sliced through me and made me just want to reach out and hug you...if you ever need someone to talk to please just let me know...Take care of you and may you find healing in sharing your poetry~ |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Blondie, This is so sad. My heart goes out to you. I hope that writing about it helps you to heal. It is always tough to lose a parent, but suicide would make it even harder. May your heart find peace. Lone Wolf< !signature--> Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats [This message has been edited by Lone Wolf (edited 11-14-2000).] |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
Thank you for the post...and to tell you the truth I might even take you up on the offer of maybe speaking with you once in a great while. It is great to get things off of my chest...thank you for the offer and thanks for sending your post. |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
Thank you so much Wolf for the post |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Blondie- i don't know what to say at this moment or begin to explain how your poem has so deeply touched my heart. my prayers and thoughts are with you. to say i am sorry for your loss sounds lame...but i am, terribly so! My heart goes out to you. If you ever need a shoulder to lean on or just someone to listen...please feel free to email me. i don't know where you've been but i too lost my mom...only differently. |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
Aimster Thank you so much for the love and support. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Blondie sorry you lost your Mother and I know that you must have felt alone on that day but you are not alone...hoping for better days for you...take care...James |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Blondie, I lost my mother 28 years ago today. I know the pain of it. God bless you give you peace and may your poetry be a source of comfort and expression for you. "When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey."" Laurie Lee Kathleen |
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Blondie Member
since 1999-08-06
Posts 307Ohio |
Thank you both  |
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Parker Member Elite
since 2000-01-06
Posts 3129ON |
Blondie, I really can't imagine how you feel or if you even have the strength to face those feelings. I lost my father when I was 4 and many times in my life, I cursed him for not being there. Even though he had no control over his death. I don't believe that anybody takes their life full knowing what they are doing. Sometimes people become broken in many ways. Even though we want to blame them for being this way, in most cases they have no control over this. The ghosts that haunt them take over their thinking processes. Normally we have a strong survival instinct and parental protection instincts. If this fails due to some other internal problem caused by unknown physical or emotional circumstances... then well you've lived one of the possible outcomes. The saddness is that we(society) are so nieve in our attempt to identify and correct these problems, which causes innocents to get hurt along with the broken individual. I don't know if you have forgiven your mother. I just hope that you, understand some of these possibilities and that if everything was working corrently she would not have made that fatel choice. If all was normal and working properly she would not have left her child. Maybe from a different perspective, you can see that she was taken from you and you were taken from her, and this might have happened long before she died. That with which we can't understand or see, we believe isn't there or should be easily delt with. This is one of the hardest challenges in our life to accept and understand. If we don't face this challenge or see its potential to harm our own proper working machinery we may become broken is some way. I don't know if any of this made any sense. I mean no disrespect for this day that you are facing. I hope you can find some understanding and forgive her for maybe not having the full ability to make the correct choice. This way you can love her and yourself for the both of you, as it should have been. Hugs..... Parker [This message has been edited by Haleyja (edited 11-15-2000).] |
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