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Aimster
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since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297
Charlotte, NC

0 posted 2000-09-26 08:38 AM


***note to the readers*** im sorry that this one seems sad...this is just my soul and heart trying to find some comfort during a really hard time in my life. i'm okay...just have some VERY difficult decisions to make. love you all.
~amy~
What Am I To Do?
Amy M. Kennedy

They tell me not to love you
And that it is wrong
But they can't possibly know how I feel
I've loved you for so long

I'm supposed to let you go
And I don't even know why
When I think of us apart
All I can do is sit and cry

You are my soulmate and friend
And my lover to
How do I stop loving you?
What am I suppose to do?

I don't want to give up
But a new wall appears everyday
How do I give up?
I can't just throw this all away

I am fighting harder
Than I've ever fought before
I just couldn't bear it
If we had to close this door

No one knows the pain
That this is having on my heart
As I lay here quietly
Crying softly in the dark

I know how much you love me
I feel it in your touch
And I swear as God as my witness
I've never loved someone so much

But the walls get higher
What happens when we can no longer climb?
Am I suppose to just turn away
And pretend you were never mine

Life has taught me lessons
One's I shall never forget
But how do I let go
Of my angel that was heaven sent

You tell me to say
And not to let you go
But my heart fills with such sadness
As I look around at the chaos, and then I know

I know I will never love this way again
Fight with me, perhaps we can win
I hold onto the beautiful day
When our lives can finally begin

Your mother hates me
I know this to be true
But all I know is pure and simple
I beyond any shadow of a doubt...love you.



"The head learns knew things, but the heart forever more practices old experiences"

© Copyright 2000 Amy Kennedy - All Rights Reserved
Kethry
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since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082
Victoria Australia
1 posted 2000-09-26 08:52 AM


Aimster,
I have not read your work before but if this But how do I let go
Of my angel that was heaven sent  
is a sample of what you do, then I know i will be reading your work again.
Well done.
Kethry.


"It is the image in the mind that links us to lost treasures;
but it is the loss that shapes the image,
gathers the flowers weaves the garland."-

Angelwings
Member
since 1999-08-27
Posts 222
IL, USA
2 posted 2000-09-26 11:04 AM


Aimster~
     What a wonderful poem.  If you love something hold on dearly, you never know when it might be gone.  If the words you wrote in your poem are the true way you feel there is no way this love wasn't meant to be.  Hold on to your angel!
               Chelsea

Chanson
Senior Member
since 2000-08-19
Posts 1559
Up Creek w/Out Paddle
3 posted 2000-09-26 11:49 AM


Hi Aimster,

They say love conquers all.
The obstacles and adversities
may seem (or really are) hard
to win but hang in there. You
don't sound like a quitter  

...chanson~

Music, tonal clear & pure,
Caresses the harshest of curves.
-Song of Gesture


Janet Marie
Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

4 posted 2000-09-26 05:51 PM


I don't want to give up
But a new wall appears everyday
How do I give up?
I can't just throw this all away

I am fighting harder
Than I've ever fought before
I just couldn't bear it
If we had to close this door

No one knows the pain
That this is having on my heart
As I lay here quietly
Crying softly in the dark

I know how much you love me
I feel it in your touch
And I swear as God as my witness
I've never loved someone so much

But the walls get higher
What happens when we can no longer climb?
Am I suppose to just turn away
And pretend you were never mine

========================
welcome back sweetie ...
you already know how i feel about this subject...
I'm sorry after all this time things havent resolved them selves...
TO ME===this poem asks and answers your own question...
you two love each other...
you two want to be together..
it is outside interference that is puting up the walls...
NOT one of you shutting the other one out...RIGHT?!?!!!
So my take on it is....
when they put up a wall...cut out a door
when they close a door ... open a window ...
hell tunnel UNDER the wall ...
better yet ...move into your own brick house toghether and LOCK THE DOOR...
let them huff and puff ..they'll get tired sooner or later ...
IF you two are truly commited and know this is for the rest of your life..
then knock down those walls..
Introduce them to Bulldozer Amy ...
the Amy I know finds a way ...
theres my 2 cents  
take care sweets ...
Ill be in touch when i can ...
my time is not my own right now..
but know I'm reading and thinking about you
even if i dont reply...
doing a bit of spring cleaning of my soul these days...seems to be taking awhile  
jm
  

There are places inside our souls -
that have never been touched.
There are places inside our hearts -
that need to be loved this much.
~jm~


Elizabeth
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5 posted 2000-09-26 06:26 PM


A very difficult time indeed, Amy. I know that you will be able to find a way through this. You have every right to make your own decision in this situation and you should follow your heart. Hope that everything works out.

Elizabeth


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Sven
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Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA
6 posted 2000-09-26 06:39 PM


Amy. . . welcome back my friend. . . I'm sorry to see you back under such sad circumstances. . .

There's only one thing that I can say. . . sometimes, you have to fight for what you believe in. . . and I know that you believe in this. . .

Excellent poem my friend. . .

--------------------------------------------------------

That which gives light must endure burning
--Victor Frankl


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