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For my son in jail (You are there and I am here)
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For my son in jail (You are there and I am here) |
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rosenms4 New Member
since 2000-09-26
Posts 2 |
My Son made a mistake, for the drugs he did unlawfully take. So we all must pay, cause the law took Our Son away. Now He’s in Jail, and Our Heart do ache cause we can’t go his bail. One day on the phone You said, You are there and I am here so how can you know what I feel? I say this to you My Son: You are there and I am here This is how I know what you feel. I am now… Sad, cause I miss you and I can’t kiss you. Mad, cause I can’t help you, in this place you reside My God what kind of Mom am I? Pain, cause I hurt you by telling you to leave. I am SORRY, this I hope you believe. Fear of what will happen to you before it is all said and done. Forsaken, I must be in hell Can anyone hear me…My son is in jail! Wondering, why you are # 41 and how can I get it all undone? Lonely, cause I need you and you are not here. Does his Girl miss him? No…I fear. Selfjudgment about the chooses I made it cuts my heart like a blade. Son I Know I failed you but, I know your love will never fade. Hungry, I want to feed you all you’re favorite foods. But, they tell me, not you, what I can bring for your goods. Loss of Faith, My God where are you? Are you really true blue? Father God Please Forgive me but it’s too much to bear. Can’t you see? Please Please Please take this cross from me. But, I know it’s only Satan, wanting to slip in. Damn you Satan and Damn you again! Worried, will Jail make a negative in you? Will you learn new bad things to do? Desiring, wanting to touch your face, to hold you, to feel your warm embrace. Depressed…. I, want to die, I want to kill these feelings inside. Time, One more month, a year…or nine? It’s enough to make me shout My God how long is his time. Now you see My Son, I too am in Jail There is a virtual prison in my mind And it is called Hell. Written for Dement # 41 By: Mama |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
I've never felt so many emotions at one time as you express in this poem to your son heartache, longing, fear, love, anxiety, entrapment, "there is a virtual prison in my mind". I can't imagine any worse feeling. He is very fortunate to have your love. Those who are imprisoned without that, are also imprisoned by rejection. A poem a week will keep him spiritually alive and well. Liz |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Very vivid expression of your feelings...you will make it one day at a time Mama...just Love him and keep in touch...James |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
RosenMS~ Written from the depths of a mother's love - you've spoken your heart. You have the heart of a mother who feels the pain our children suffer. Continue to love and send prayers to your son. I would ask that God let you know that any guilt you bear is not yours to carry. Be at peace with yourself, mother. My prayers are with you. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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Nan
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
You haven't failed your son - Our children make their own decisions when they're grown - Sometimes society and peer pressures overpower the effect we can have on our babies... Be strong, and be there for him... That's all you can do right now - I'm so sorry for the heartache you're all enduring... God Bless - and Welcome to Passions Nancy |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
This is heartbreakingly beautiful. So many emotions I felt in this piece at one. I have no idea how you must be feeling...as I've never been in this kind of situation. However, I must say you paint your feelings superbly in this! Take care and God Bless. ~Amy~ "The head learns knew things, but the heart forever more practices old experiences" |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
rosenms4 you feel the pain all parents feel when your child has erred the path but in time you will heal I understand your wrath It's hard to stand away and let your little children go your heart bleeds for them ,don't fret how else will they grow. I know it's hard but just abide in Him who understands after all He too had a son and will caress you, help you stand. Sorry your fist post is such a sad subject. Be well Kethry "It is the image in the mind that links us to lost treasures; but it is the loss that shapes the image, gathers the flowers weaves the garland."- |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Welcome to Passions, and I'm sorry it has to be such a sorrowful entry. I don't know anyone here who hasn't been through heartache, let us be there for you and comfort you. Kathleen |
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Angelwings Member
since 1999-08-27
Posts 222IL, USA |
Welcome to passions! I'm sorry your first post had to be something so sad. I, too, know the feelings that you hold. The tears that flood out of your eyes when you see your baby sitting there in jail. I'm glad you shared these feelings with us. You'll make it through this, although you may not think so, you will. God Bless You! Great writing. Chelsea |
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minstrel Junior Member
since 2000-07-27
Posts 21Bowling Green, KY |
Such a very sorrowful posting. I could feel what you felt inside. We often create our own prisons in our lives, but it's even more unbearable when those prisions are imposed upon us by outside circumstances. I wish you the best with this terrible ordeal. minstrel |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
This is the saddest thing...oh...the tears are just pouring...I will pray that you find some comfort, somehow, and that soon your son will be in your arms...take care. |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
This is not your shame nor your fault. We all reach an age where we are able to make rational decisions and we must be willing to take the consequences of those choices. I know that it does not take away the heart but I also know that with YOUR love HE will be okay in the end. Loving is what mom's do best. |
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rosenms4 New Member
since 2000-09-26
Posts 2 |
Wow I never expected this kinda responce. You all are just the kindest people. Thank you all for the incouraging, and uplifting messages. This is what the world need more of. LOVE and CONCERN for our fellow man or woman. You guys and my family have just made me what to write another poem. That was my first one and so full of feelings real and true feelings. I don't think I could ever write that way again. It was just there and it flowed like a river. Although the words from My Scott "You are there and I am here" were spoken to me a few weeks back and had been bering on my heart as to how to say I do feel your pain and I do understad somewhat. So I sat down to write him a letter and I thought I will write a poem a instead. I am not a poet nor have I ever posted a poem before last night. I know it made you feel what I was feeling but, could some one please tell me was it really a good poem? What makes a good poem anyway? Do you all think I should write another. My family wants more but I don't know. Hey Guys! Thanks All and every one. |
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inot2B Member Elite
since 2000-09-18
Posts 2205Arkansas |
Yes, it was a very good poem. No,I'm not a poet. When your words can make another who reads them feel what you feel then you know you are good. I feel for you because I have walked in your shoes before. He was loved and saw his parents walk the straight road, but he chose his own crooked path. I love the children that they were but the adults they are now, is not what I would have chose. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I've read many poems with perfect rhyme and meter and not felt a thing... and therefore, I didn't remember a thing when I turned the page. Technical perfection can contribute to good poetry but it is not good poetry any more than the cake pan is a delectable dessert. Your poem put us through the gamut of emotions you're living with... we felt your guilt, your disappointment, your worry... and always, your love. So yes, it's poetry and yes, it's good. And love this strong can work miracles... Stick by him, Mama... and keep loving him! |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
A poem need not rhyme to be a poem. Just write from the heart and let it be. That is called "FREE VERSE" and there are many poets who do just that. If you spend enough time in here you will realize that everything from love and sadness to navel lint can become a poem. Yes, I said navel lint as one was posted about that by a poet named KETHRY. I do so hope that you continue to write as it is a GREAT way of healing. That is how I ended up here. |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
You wrote what was in your heart And you touched me That is poetry Liz |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
The pain you feel is very real. No man can take that away. Faith to believe he will always be, is what you need now. Be strong for your son. Sometimes thats all a son has is his mom. God Bless you, Pray for him, thats the key *Hugs* Debra |
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