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Paint Me Blue |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
~Paint Me Blue~ He looks at her and he comes alive, she is his reason, his will to survive. She is all he needs and that's just a fact, and I used to know what it was like ... to be loved like that. I see the couples out together in the summers night ... holding hands and talking in whispers by candle light. I see the anticipation and promise in their eyes, and I remember what love feels like ... before it quietly fades and dies. I watch the way he holds her so close when they embrace in a slow dance... the way they touch and become one in that gentle moment of romance. The way their eyes say it all as they speak from with in, and I recall the way that it all felt ... and I wonder if I'll ever know it again. He writes her the most beautiful poems anyone has ever read, he gives her all his heart ... he leaves not a single word unsaid. He pledges undying love ... promises fate and destiny, God I'd give anything to have someone feel that way again about me. And I wonder which is easier on a lonely persons heart ... is it better to lose love ... or simply to never have it start. Would I still feel this empty ... if love had never come my way, or does this ache only come from realizing that its gone to stay. The old saying "you don't know what you got till its gone"... seems to be true, all I know is a die a little more every day since I lost sight of you. They also say "even a bad love is better than no love at all" ... but my bruised heart wants to disagree ... its so damn tired of the fall. I don't have the answers ... I don't know the secret verse, all I know is every day without you is like living with a curse. I'm tired of being alone with no one to hold me ... and it's a one sided night of passion ... making love to your memory. As I hold the gifts you gave me ... baptized in your scent ... I remember your voice and all the things that we meant. I'm so scared that time will steal this and the essence will fade, and I know to touch you just once more ... my soul I would trade. I promised you I wouldn't become this sad or this lost, and I'm sorry ... but being loved by you was worth any cost. Something's we just don't get over ... so just paint me blue ... there will always be a part of my heart missing ... as it will always belong to you. For DeVante' ... always Janet Marie 9/14/00 There are places inside our souls - that have never been touched. There are places inside our hearts - that need to be loved this much. ~jm~ |
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TerryW Senior Member
since 2000-03-23
Posts 779Louisville, Mississippi, USA |
JanetMarie~ My friend, this is one of the most heartfelt poems I have ever read. You put your haert and soul into this one, girl. I love it. There is one thing that I believ though, and it answers one of your questions: And I wonder which is easier on a lonely persons heart ... is it better to lose love ... or simply to never have it start I have to say that it would be to lose it ... I was listening to a song by Billie Myers the other day, and I think she said it best: "I would rather feel the pain, than feel nothing at all." I remember what I felt like when I lost love a couple of years ago, and for months, I was numb inside. That is a feeling that I can't stand. Even if I am hurting, at least I know I'm still alive. And if I am alive, then I have another chance at love........ Love Ya~  ~you reached inside, you touched my heart, and I am all the better for it~ Terry A. Woodson, Jr. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Janet this is simply beautiful...I can't stand to see you so blue...I know you Love DeVante very much but if something has happened beyond your control or he doesn't appreciate your beauty please consider someone new could be reaching for you... I went thru this with my first wife thinking no one could ever compare and believe me she was special and believe me I have met special women since then...I would love to be with her again but knowing it is not possible I had to let go and go on...sorry if I seem forward...actually I just want to see you smiling...James |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
When someone is at your side, your world is full of wonder... when they're gone, the wondering batters and bruises. I feel as though you wrung the tears from my pillow... this hurts that much. But it is very well done... |
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Elizabeth Santos Member Rara Avis
since 1999-11-08
Posts 9269Pennsylvania |
" It's a one sided night of passion --Making love to your memory" Wow, you say it like it is Very well written, sincere and honest Right from the heart WEll done, my bright poet Liz |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Yea you! Here's a music quote for you, m'twin: "I am a lonely painter, I live in a box of paints. I'm frightened by the devil, and I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid..." "I remember that time you told me, you said love was touching souls-- surely you touched mine-- 'cause part of you pours out of me, in these lines from time to time..." "You're in my blood, you're my Holy Wine... You taste so bitter, and so sweet... Oh I could drink a case of you, and still stay on my feet..." Joni Mitchell, "A Case of YOU", from PRACTICAL MAGICK ---and hey you, we're going to be fine, fine, fine...loved this one, as ya well know...HUGS...sneak me an e, will ya? |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
As I read this I again re-affirm my opinion that WITH him you write so differently...not J.M.'s way, not his way but together it is YOUR way....this one rips and cries but through and through it shows a love that never would have been there had you not loved at 110%...and that's the only way that love should be. Love you for this one girlie....it's so tender and so full of the love that you held for him...how could you Not miss him...but in time the healing and the sunshine will be back with his memory..that it won't always bring with it the ache...until then...write baby...write~ **angel wing hugs and butterfly kisses** |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Im sorry...I know this one is sadder than most of my poetry and I didnt mean to worry anyone.. and I love those of you who E-mailed to see if Im ok... Im fine, I promise....this one just wrote itself as do all my Vante' poems... as many of you know I have been posting a series of "butterfly poems" about this special man ... who touched my life briefly, but will be in my heart always... i write to celebrate him... this one came out a bit ~Bluer~ ... but the end result is the same .. he runs thru me and inspires me always. I will reply to these sweet replies soon ... I just wanted to let those concerned know Im fine. love you me sweet gators me by request....I repost this one here to help those who dont know about him to understand as I will continue to write about him always. this was posted in the Voices on the Web. ~To Hold A Butterfly~ He said "Hold me before I go baby ... and promise me you wont cry," so I held him like it was forever, and I promised ... though we both knew it was a sweet lie. He said "Love me while Im gone baby" ... and thru my tears, all I could do was smile. He had heard the angels calling his name ... we both knew he only had a little while. So I held him even closer ... and I tried to quiet all his doubt. I kissed away his tears that fell ... from too many years of doing without. I said "I will always love you baby, this you already know." Then he taught me how to hold on to love ... while still learning to let go. And I learned there are some wounds ... that even love cant heal. And I learned unconditional love ... was gentle, genuine, and real. I said "I don't just love you baby ... I love you desperately." This kind of love is forever ... it is born of fate and destiny. So we held each other tighter, and we let not one single emotion go unspoken. We learned this love was constant ... this bond could not, would not ever be broken. And I learned that this kind of love ... could truly set a heart free. And while I was loving him ... he taught me ... how to love me. Sometimes Fate grants you a gift ... and it gives your life its destination. And along the way ... you find your self and your heart's inspiration. Everything indeed ... happens for a reason ... something's are simply and sweetly just ~meant to be~. So I loved him like it was my last chance, and when the time came ... I set my butterfly free. ~Butterflies Are Meant To Be Free~ Janet Marie for DeVante'... with my love, always. [This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 09-25-2000).] |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
I'm not sure who asked sweetie...but I needed this one today...thank you to whoever requested this...and ya I know I can always go into my files to read it...but somethings you don't KNOW you need until you receive them...ya You KNOW  Love ya! |
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Cerenity Member Elite
since 2000-02-16
Posts 2637Escondido-California |
Hi Janet, Pure love is what I see and hear through this poem and I feel for you and your loss, but at the same time you seem to be so strong and wise, I will be thinking of you and send some prayers your way, blue is a magnificent color it is just how you preceive it. Love, Cerenity "God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist. We have to be reminded that He exist!" (Writer Unknown) |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
JM... This one is so filled with memories and a touch of sadness, but the ending is so very beautiful, when you recall the love that meant so much....... I'm a blues singer, and this one is begging for a melody......  Today is a gift.... That is why they call it 'the Present'! |
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Wilfred Yeats Member Elite
since 2000-08-04
Posts 2704Wilmington, Delaware |
We who love with all we are and more - feel more - are more exhilerated more - fly higher - and crash with greater pain. I feel secure in saying that what you felt (and are still feeling) - that is good -will remain with you - to be told to grandchildren rigght along with the tales of how that next (and hopefully last) love came along - wormed its way into your heart, and while it did not supplant, filled you equally as well and made you glad you kept your heart open to another chance. [[[hugs]]] ~You have to have a dream so you can get up in the morning. ~ Billy Wilder |
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Jenn E Senior Member
since 2000-08-02
Posts 589Kelowna, BC, Canada |
Janet, I have never read anyone like you.......I am just stunned at these beautiful words I have just read. God, Janet, your heart is just so beautiful...I know this...having you in his life for whatever time it was, I am sure showed his heart many things as he showed yours. The beauty of love is you never have to stop loving only to find a way to keep living.......never stop "finding that way"....and if you do, look for all the lights in this world that are on for you and seek shelter in the one's that care for you...In my thoughts, (often) Softest caring smile I can give Jenn E |
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Marina Member Elite
since 2000-02-10
Posts 2245Pickering, Ontario |
As always, he has brought out the best in you. He was truly a very special person and through your poetry, I have always felt like I knew him too. Hugs, Marina It is a blessing to have wings for words, and passion in pen Marina Crossley |
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Parker Member Elite
since 2000-01-06
Posts 3129ON |
Janet, I love when you pen from your heart for DeVante. These poems are always so special to read and truly from your heart. Parker |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
I so enjoy "celebrating" your love for DeVante and though it is sad in your verse I know that the wholeness of you and of him lives on in your every essence. It took awhile for you to get me to realize that this is a celebration of him and nothing more or less. It is as he would want it to be and HE lives on in YOU and because of YOU and your desire to never let lose of what he was about and what the two of you had. I love this one girl and I will continue to celebrate with you every day. |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Janet--when you have loved as deeply as you have...that love stays in your heart forever..he will always be a part of you that nothing can change...Your poetry about him is so touching..because you spread your heart out for us to see, and it feels like we can see a part of you too intimate to view...I celebrate your beautiful heart and the love that I see there. Thank you for sharing all that you do. Many hugs to you, my friend. |
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Corazon Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 1209 |
ok girl now you did it, you made me cry, I too feel this, but the tears keep me from writing about it....you did so simply beautifully......hugs for blueness, may it turn to warmness soon |
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LoveBug
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Member Elite
since 2000-01-08
Posts 4697 |
Oh JM, this is such a sad poem. I know this feeling quite well. I can especally relate to this stanza: "And I wonder which is easier on a lonely persons heart ... is it better to lose love ... or simply to never have it start. Would I still feel this empty ... if love had never come my way, or does this ache only come from realizing that its gone to stay." I hope writing this helped ease some of the aching of your heart. Love will come to you again, I'm sure. Just keep your eyes open. Best of luck! False gems may shine as brightly as the genuine article, but there are always those who can tell the diffrence. |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Janet Marie, I could make this reply ten pages long and still not say all that I would want to say about this pair of poems. You have hit me in a place so hidden I'm sure you you couldn't know it but your arrow flew as true to the mark as if it had to be launched with unerring accuracy. I have always held you in great regard but you have now gone to a new level in my eyes. You, li'l gator, are something else! |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
As we fill the night with celebration. |
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linda munday Member
since 2000-06-17
Posts 315Adelaide, Australia |
This has got to be one of the strongest yet softly worded poems on this subject I have ever read. You literally brought a tear to my eye. Is there another book... I wanna vote for it.... Beautiful, beautiful poem !!! Linda Munday |
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Jon Mewett Senior Member
since 2000-03-04
Posts 1304 |
wonderful poem.........just wonderful. Jon |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Janet, Hey there! Wow is it good to be back. You are one of the biggest reasons of my return to Passions. I have missed your writing terribly dear friend. And even though this is heartbreakingly sad, this is a perfect example why. Few works do I read that touch me with such depth or emotion. Like I have told you countless times you simply amaze me with your awesome ability. So here I am again...to learn even more from you. I am sorry I have been out of touch. But so much in my own personal life has been crazy. I needed a little time away from it all. I know you understand. Take care! Love ya, Amy "The head learns knew things, but the heart forever more practices old experiences" |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
JM, little gator, there are no words. Kethry "It is the image in the mind that links us to lost treasures; but it is the loss that shapes the image, gathers the flowers weaves the garland."- |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Sighing...I'd rather not have to see you blue, but wonderful poem |
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kitkat Senior Member
since 2000-01-11
Posts 878Nova Scotia |
Oh Janet-Such emotion in this poem.{{hugs}} |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
My apologies for taking so long to get back and reply to you for these absolutely amazing replies... it was my intention to thank each one of you individually, but i have been taken away for a bit taking care of loved ones ... so please accept this HEARTFELT thank you... EACH one of these replies were so special and so poetic... Im still in awe of them... please know i felt each and every word and I am deeply humbled and touched by you all. Thank you for sharing your selves with me like this and for healing me with your understanding and acceptance. To have fellow poets whose work I so greatly admire and respect...tell me-- my words effect you this much ... well...it is the reason for poetry... thank you for allowing me to touch you with him... he is so very special...and inspires me in places so deep with in that the poems seem to write themselves ... I know he writes them and I simply hold the pen. Thank you all for being the wind beneath my wings. much love and respect to you Janet Marie There are places inside our souls - that have never been touched. There are places inside our hearts - that need to be loved this much. ~jm~ |
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CocoBaci Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 3043 |
Oooooo Janet, how I feel sooooo fortunate to read these words of rhyme Such breath-taking love youNbeloved continue to share in your heartNsoul foreverNaDay Always he is with you... I gotta confess this weave of rhyme just made me sniffle N cry an awestruck kinda feeling but not of sadness cus two souls had been blessed with such depth of love...  Coco Geeeeeez how'd I miss this!! |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
*smile* ... dear sweet Coco... you are always such a faithful reader... You make me smile the way you always turn up in back forums and how you find ones you've missed in back pages. thank you for letting me know my poems touch you.. your replies do the same to me later-archive-reading-gator jm |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Janet~ always you touch my heart with the beauty of yours........ - SEA |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Janny honey my heart breaks for you, for the way you feel and I'm so terribly sorry. This is so tenderly written from your heart, I'm sorry you feel this pain and know it's not easy for you floating winged ~HUGS~ your way sweetie Love Tracie~ Love is the life of the soul... It is the harmony of the universe |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Janny honey my heart breaks for you, for the way you feel and I'm so terribly sorry. This is so tenderly written from your heart, I'm sorry you feel this pain and know it's not easy for you floating winged ~HUGS~ your way sweetie Love Tracie~< !signature--> Oops I'm sorry I've been having so much trouble with my computer tonight  Love is the life of the soul... It is the harmony of the universe [This message has been edited by tracie66 (edited 10-26-2000).] |
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Ron K. Fox Senior Member
since 2000-10-24
Posts 925 |
Love can be wonderful, Sometimes so cruel, It sometimes gives quarter, Sometimes a duel. Sometimes a gain. Sometimes a loss. But a gift to have held, Whatever the cost. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
SEA-GATOR ... and YOU always touch me with the beauty of your replies ... TY for the understanding and also for the way cool graphic your a dear one.Trace ... I am ok hon...I promise ... I know this one is on the sad side but sometimes they just come out that way ... but anytime my muse gives me a poem about my sweet vante'...I am very happy ...TY for your hugs and concern sweet poet. Ron ... HI and welcome to passions poet sir...I am on a "hiatus" from posting right now...but I have read your work and enjoyed your work... thank you for this beautiful appropriate verse... yes...no matter what the cost...this gift,this love was worth it...always will be. thanks again to all who replied to this poem last month and now again as it has been brought back (TY COCO) take care sweet poets jm |
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spiked Senior Member
since 2000-01-13
Posts 873Hammond, La USA |
Janet i sit here speechless wishing only the best for you. Thanks for sharing, Rich |
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AniKay83 Member
since 2000-06-28
Posts 388Missing Since 1999 |
Oh, good Lord girl, you get me everytime! Just paint me blue right along with you! Now where's the smily face with the tear?  Close enough.... JM, I don't think I've ever been as impressed by a writer as I've been by you. Everytime! You make me want to cry or laugh, I can always identify with a piece of your poetry, as well as your heart. Honest, you are my favorite writer. God Bless the day I found Passions- I found my hero. Keep writing. Always.P.S. Please take a look at my poem Asinine Elaboration, under 'God, Please don't let it always be this complicated' in this forum (Open Poetry #10) I really would like your opinion. I feel like I finally got something out, that I've been holding back for awhile. Just waiting for the right words!< !signature--> Much love all, Krissie Those words... Oh, how I long to hear ...those words Tell me... ~This girl's heart~ [This message has been edited by AniKay83 (edited 10-27-2000).] |
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Jamie Member Elite
since 2000-06-26
Posts 3168Blue Heaven |
Very lovely and well done JM! and psssst-- later blue-hued gator Jamie Tu ne cede malis, sed contra audentior ito. - Virgil. "Yield thou not to adversity, but press on the more bravely". |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
"and it's a one sided night of passion ... making love to your memory." I'm so glad I didn't miss this one Janet Marie. How beautifully you've painted this image of pure and perfect love ... a love that touches one so strongly will last a lifetime in our memories. Hugs to you for these deeply touching words from your heart. Best wishes, /Kit |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
I can certainly feel the love in this poem..nicely written..and looking forward to reading more of your romantic poetry Janet Marie... ~Victoria~ A poem is never finished, only abandoned. - Paul Valery (1871-1945) |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
To my Blue Butterfly JM. May you feed upon the nector of replies And fly forever free my Blue Butterfly. Amazing poetry winkiewinkie Sy. |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
I promised you I wouldn't become this sad or this lost, and I'm sorry ... but being loved by you was worth any cost. Something's we just don't get over ... so just paint me blue ... there will always be a part of my heart missing ... as it will always belong to you. Jan this one runs deep way way deep too deep for words left completely breathless by this one Eve. "an afixiation a fix on anything the line of life the limb of a tree the hands of he and the promise that s/he is blessed among women". Patti Smith |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
Jm...I thought that I allready have read this one, and only came in to read it once again.....and I was suprised that I haven't seen it before....this wonderful expression of your feeling.....I am so glad that I came by, so that this one didn't fade away, without reading it. (((warm hugs))) Charisma |
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Moon Dust
since 1999-06-11
Posts 2177Skelmersdale, UK |
This is so sad and sweet, yet I sometimes feel this way. love this one. Sometimes you have to let go and move on, But never let go of the memories. |
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Dee Member Elite
since 2000-08-19
Posts 2330Queensland, Australia |
Janet, your beautiful heart shines through this one. Your sadness touches me. So does your talent! Today my profile signature is for you. "I wish you every happiness and may you always have the best of the good things in life." Dee |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
please forgive me taking so long to thank you for these replies...I thought I had posted to it over the weekend... Rich ... thank you sir...sometimes no words are needed...really...TY Krissie ...Ive run out of things to say to you to truely thank you for your replies... they are like poetry to my eyes...thank you so very much....Im so touched that my poetry effects you in this way.. as your does mine. Jamie...thank you poet sir....nice to see you...thanks for the gator reply Kit... thank you sweetie... it si getting harder and harder to keep up on all the posts these days....we are a ever growing family...thank you for always reading me. Victoria....thank you for coming by..you do well in the romantic poetry departement as well. Sy.. thank you my gator winkie pal and yes....these beautiful replies are sweet as nectar.. makes me think I can fly...love the verse. Bri.... thank you.. you know how he inspires me to new places..thanks for letting me share him with you. Charisma....thank you very much... Im glad you came in too.... Maria ... thank you, yes we all feel this at some time...nice to see you again Dee... thank you for such sweet reply and for such a lovley wish...you touch me too. thank you all for these amazing replies...Im sorry I took so long. jm |
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Wilfred Yeats Member Elite
since 2000-08-04
Posts 2704Wilmington, Delaware |
a reread of a poem as heartfelt as this - was a welcome reminder - that i should have put this in my treasure box - where it will go now |
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