Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
Thank you Nate, Amy, Marina, Rosebud, and Romantic for reading and commenting.
Amy I think it is more of an obsession or addiction with me..something I am working on.
Marina you are a sweetheart and I would love to be your companion...who could resist a sweetheart.
Rosebud my goal is to stop idolizing women and to accept them as friends..focusing on their personalities and spirits.
Romantic I am glad that I am at a place where I can be honest with my feelings. I sent copies of this to my sons and my oldest son ask me if I would mind if he sent a copy to his mom. I told him to go ahead if he thinks it would be appropriate. I told him I don't want her angry with me again...I don't want to stir up old anger. However..when I write about my past mistake I find it cleansing to face the truth and healing for my soul. James