Well, they say the road to hell is paved with good intentions,
I've walked this road burdened ...
with secrets and baggage that I cant mention.
I've paid the price too many times now ... for someone else's sins,
and I know all the games, and I know just cause you play by the rules ...
sure as hell don't mean your gonna win.
I have spent a lifetime trying to get back the things they took away,
and I learned something's they took from me, are simply gone to stay.
It took years to even begin ... to ever let myself feel trust ...
to learn the difference between truth and lies, tired alibis, love and lust.
I always knew I could do better than the examples that they set,
I just refuse to be like them ... I haven't lost this bet, yet.
So I cut all my losses and broke free of the ties that bind,
I set out to find what was left of me, and to leave all this pain behind.
Some days it does get hard, the voices still haunt me ...
and I'm still learning that I am the only one who can truly set ~ME~ free.
So I try to look forward and let go of all the sorrow,
I refuse to let them have a hold on me ... they cant have my tomorrows.
I can walk this road of life and not lose my own way ...
I will have my run at the sun, and when I'm tired all I need to do is pray.
So here's to NEW HORIZONS ... to breaking free and rising above ...
here's to poetry ... true friends ... and here's to unconditional love.
Here's to better days ... to kissing fate ... and dancing with destiny ...
here's to happy endings ... here's to you ...
and here's to me finally learning to love me.
Janet Marie 5/17/00
thanks for the inspiration Jeffery and Lone Wolf
and for the idea of writing with someone else...
your poems together inspired me and Brian Madden to write "Celestial Passions"...
and we have plans to write others,
and I also have plan to write with a few other fav poets...
SEE what you started LOL
"no more tears ... left to hide,
we have made it thru a long and lonely nite,
BETTER DAYS ... are on our sides...
well, it looks as though we're doing something right.
[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 05-18-2000).]