Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
To Touch and Feel
She always cooked the most delicious meals.
The finest steaks that she could grill.
We both shared a common fate.
Divorce left us alone without our mates.
We opened our hearts enough to let each other in.
We soon became the best of friends.
Before I met her she was a successful Doctor's wife.
She enjoyed traveling and loved to socialize.
She could dance the night away under starlit nights.
They traveled the world together and it was a lovely life.
Each and everyplace they'd go she'd have new travel pictures to show.
Her picture book was filled with memories of these lovely happy days.
Until...one dark and disgusting day the new secretary in the doctors office stole her doctors heart away.
This new secretary knew the very first day that all of the Doctors would look her way.
And in her heart she would say which one would take a good look and never look away.
Why did it have to be Margarets man.
Was it something she did wrong.
This was one thing she would never understand.
In Margarets eyes this girl will always be the young office worker who took her life away.
a devastation beyond her control thru and thru.
How could she have possibly knew.
All of the other Doctors and Margarets friends took her side.
The Doctor didn't care, he said.."I'm out of here."
He said, "Margaret I've found someone I like better."
"So what if you worked your butt off to put me thru Medical School." "I know who I Love, I'm a Doctor, not a fool!!!"
"Hey thats not my concern..its a low priority if I broke my wife's heart.
My life now seeks a brand new start."
His new life now became her legacy.
She the Doctors jilted ex-wife now somehow destined to live a sad and lonely life.
He and his new wife living the dream he and she once shared.
She soon found life is not so nice to become this Doctors yesterday wife.
It was hard to forgive this man.
The man she had loved simply announced one day, its over, I don't love you anymore.
And then suddenly he was gone he walked right away from their door.
A divorce came soon as she knew it would.
Now the secretary stands where she once stood.
As for Margaret, all alone she will stand.
She feels rejected as if no one understands.
The only truth she can understand is that her ex's new wife has somehow stolen away her life
and left her in the company of pain and strife.
The new wife proudly takes her place to enjoy every pleasure that Margaret once embraced.
For Margaret the loving and the caring will soon depart and be replaced by an endless hurting heart.
I met her about four years later after the dear doctor was gone and she was doing better.
But still somehow she embraced the pain.
I too knew the pain of a divorce...and so we shared our stories and our pain, we shared a friendship, some companionship, and for awhile our lives were interwoven and we shared everything.
Still in her heart I don't think she could begin to think that love would visit with her again.
Because if Love is really real wouldn't her husbands love still be her's to touch and feel?
They always say someday things will get better.
Hurt is not here to stay as time will help it go away.
I knew she tried to go that way, yet new heartache's seemed to always put on a show
and her dear Mothers death now struck yet another blow
to a grief strickin heart that had already sunken so low.
A brief marriage to an old friend failed almost as soon as it began.
Perhaps her heart had not yet healed.
Perhaps she could never trust his love to be real.
Or maybe it was exactly what she said to me..."He only wants my money...not really me."
In her heart she thought no love was there only greed permeated the air.
Still no one could say she didn't have a generous heart.
Her nephew graduated from college with honors and is now a CPA cause of dear Margaret who paid his way.
I always tried to be her friend even though we simply could never both agree
to try a little harder to believe that we could have been much more than a friend
if we could have agreed to open wide our hearts and let each other come in.
I could sense we each only gave a small part of our hearts
and we never quite gave our all almost as if we knew we were headed for a fall.
I moved to Hawaii and we kept in touch.
We both had another in our life but friends we stayed.
We would meet again someday, somehow, someway..
Two years passed and by now my marriage had failed so miserably.
My thoughts turned to Margaret, my friend far across the sea.
I remembered all the times she told me she loved me.
The times she opened her heart so warm and tenderly.
All those delicious dinners we shared.
Everyway she showed how much she cared.
Another fatal blow soon came to stay
when the news arrived that her brother in Kentucky had just passed away.
First her mother now her brother.
Why must so much death and sorrow come her way?
It hurt me so to see her grieving once more.
My special friend was hurt again.
How much pain must one person endure.
She had all she could bear. Of this I'm sure.
My nine days of vacation will begin today.
For over two years I've been in Hawaii so far away.
I'm 30,000 feet up in the sky they say.
Soon my family and friends will welcome my nine day stay.
Soon enough the day arrived when me and Margaret could share some time.
We ate the most wonderful steak dinner that night.
We talked about future plans for our lives.
She told me her most treasured desire would be
to come and share 30 days in Hawaii with me.
I said "Dear Margaret where would you stay."
"With you James, I'd have it no other way."
We shared all the times that we had missed.
We shared one last lingering kiss.
You see, all our hopes's and dreams would end that night.
My friend Margaret would never awake to see the morning light.
When I called the following day, I reached her friend who told me our friend Margaret had passed away.
And I know that on that very moment she entered into heavens gates.
To fully understand her life I must tell you that thru all her hurt and pain
she did find someone to Love again.
She's in his arms this very day in a place where Love never even thinks about going away.
No more earthly sorrow and pain.
A place where love will dwell for all eternity.
This is the heavenly place she longed to see.
I know she loved her family and friends more each day yet there was now another she loved in everyway.
He was the one who promised her he would never leave her or forsake her.
His heart would always stay his love could never go away.
I share this belief with Margaret..that to be absent from this body is to be present with the Lord.
In the sweet by and by Jesus wipes her tear stained eyes.
No, its not sad and lonely tears she now cries.
It tears of joy to be home at last at Jesus' side.
I share the joy and give you all the hope in my heart when I say...I'll be meeting Margaret and Jesus, my special friends, right on the streets of heaven one fine and glorious day.
And you know what...that day doesn't seem so far away.
In memory of my special friend Margaret Stieger
[This message has been edited by jmlee12345 (edited 05-17-2000).]