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Exorcising Demons
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Exorcising Demons |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland 
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Silence is in its nature, paralysed in its barbed embrace I submit my infancy easily for my hands are too feeble to raise a fist in my own defence. Devil eyes stalk me as a weak fawn, Another pathetic creature deserving of nothing less. On my knees attentive to the lessons inflicted. Disciplined to acceptance, Recite in tear choked whispers her acid taunts "I am a fat pig, I am worthless." (CHILDREN REPEAT AFTER ME "he is a fat pig he is nothing.") Against the blackboard, stripped naked so every insecurity may be exploited forced to tears for her entertainment. Casual observers with eyes turned inwards Say, "It is so beautiful. Child Hood is only happiness. School days are the best days of your life." Cowering in the shadows of crowds in the playground, seems so empty. I only have peace in this unseen existence. Silence is in its nature. There is no solace as a lamb in the company of wolves. The Children make her perfect brood eager to mimic, their innocence acts as a disarming disguise for such foul parasites. Bleed me with games of torture games of alienation Games I do not want to play. Scars fade as memory heals, yet lost time can never be reclaimed. Feel the pain fresh on my skin yet it is not hers to treasure. I reclaim these memories as mine. Fear was her leash, her only strength. Bitterness corrodes revealing only weakness once hidden in hatred. Alone the misery persists. She is now a broken form, empty without victory. The Jabberwocky haunts bearing my once tear stained face, It speaks the truth " All the hatred was in vain, for I can not be defeated." |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
It can only defeat those who allow it to. This is some excellent writing here, Brian! Some gems of wisdom laced within too! Denise |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Interesting way to write about hurt and pain. James |
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netswan Senior Member
since 2000-03-28
Posts 1369Washington |
Brian - this is very good - I enjoyed and felt your torment -----kids can be so cruel ---- Leaves only one thing for parents to do ------and that is to teach kids how to handle taunts and teasing ---- Can remember my own son calling me, he 7 and 1/2 said MOM I am going to walk this new kid home -- the other kids teased him and broke his glasses. Do you mind? And, I said, no --I am so proud of you! netswan |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
Thanks for all your kind comments. I agree Dsnyder that you have lost if you accept and refuse to fight but at the time it was hard I was only six years old. James, it was something I carried around for a long time, writing the poem was a release. It helped put the whole thing to rest and allowed me some more inner peace. Netswan I agree that children can be cruel, but I think they pick alot of it up from adults. The poem was more about a teacher who bullied me, NOT physically, in school when I was six. it made me very insular and destroyed my confidence, it took time for those wounds to heal. This poem was my release. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Heartbreaking brian--and I know that this happens quite often...very well done...thanks. |
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Kit McCallum
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Member Laureate
since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Excellent Brian! It is so sad when teachers are the one's who need the lessons. Though I wonder if she knew the hurt she caused, it matters not, as you have risen above her. Beautifully written ... Best wishes, /Kit |
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