I have found through out my life at some of the most trying of times God to be right there in front of me,"God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist, we have to be reminded that He exists!" and so I have tried to remind myself through prayer for him to remind me that I cannot do it (LIFE) on my own, and as human as I am believe me I try to do it on my own but in the finding that I need help I then turn to him and ask for help and some how He is right there every time if my heart and soul are open to his messages. There is no place upon this earth to lowly to pray to God and nothing He doesn't see, and to truly give your self in to his hands and believe in Him (God) that you can not see, just think how much more He will bless you for taking the chance. I hope that you find comfort in Him no matter how you go before him, He will hear you and understand even before you ask it of him, He will know the answers and send them to you.
I have stomped my feet like a baby around a room yelling as loud as I could at God telling him where are you, why have you not shown me in plain english what to do, this is not what I wanted the answer to be, and so on, but He still stands beside me unwavering in his love for me and so like a human I keep going back to him after I have forgotten Him and there He is right where I left Him (RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME) THAT'S LOVE
May He bless you and your family,