This is not strictly a poem. Well not at all really.
But see what you think.
I was mainly written by me for me.
So maybe you won't understand
Thank you for listening tho !
Have you ever wondered if there is a place in which nobody is ever
sad? There is no un-happiness, no tears, no hearts broken.
The truth is you can never find this place until you go through all
these things yourself, feel sadness, feel worse than you have ever felt
In the past you have picked yourself up and just carried on, but now
things have changed, you have no more strength left to do this. It is
gone. The only thing you can do is dream of this wonderful place, the
place which seems so warm and friendly, but you will never know until
you get there.
You sit at night just looking up trying to imagine what life would be
like, how you would feel in this place.
And yet you feel those feeling just thinking about it. Guilt, it is there
it will always be, it never goes away. So the place you thought would
make you happy, wouldn't.
Will you ever be happy? Are you asking too much from life? To
make yourself happy, makes others sad.
You do not want to do this. You can never do things only for yourself
there are always others involved.
You dream about it every minute of the day. It never leaves your mind
once it has entered. The place where all you hopes are never
shattered unlike life where they are never kept.
People would leave you alone, never disturb you. You'd be free to
think about the lie you had and the lie you lived for so long.
Once you are there nobody will ever find out all the terrible things you
did. You do not have to watch every word you say hoping that no one
will ever guess. Because no one has opinions no one can judge you on
what you did or seem to have done. You are free to live life without
wondering if everything you do gave it away.
Until the time comes when you have fixed all those hearts you broke
and you no longer think of any thing else, you can only dream.
One day when you have the strength you dreams will become reality.