Oh Janet...Claire said it all. I'll have you know, I sit here with big tears rolling down my cheeks now. Your words rip right through me, as I lived this for nearly a year, and let me tell you, it was hell. I wrote a poem about it a long time ago, and if I can find it, I will repost it here to share with you. And about that "innocent infidelity" thing? Well, I'd say, if you've made him aware of your pain, and he refuses to help you, then feel no guilt. He had it coming. Now that's probably the worst advice I've ever given, but no one understands this unless you've lived it. That line of ,"...every night lying here next to a stranger..." oh gawd....so many nights I'd lay on the very edge of my bed...clinging to the sheets....just wishing I could scream out and smack him a time or two!! How do two people who supposedly love eachother, grow so far apart, and not even care that they do? Okay...I'll hush now, as I'm crying such big tears, I think I'm gonna drown here. lol Girl, I am here to talk, believe me. This was painfully beautiful. You are definately getting GOOD at expressing your heart. Keep it coming! Love you!