After daily torture & mental bruises I never opened to the suggestions of others.
Then you made the mistake of endagering my child.
I had to ask myself some questions.
For days on end I would wonder what I had done to make you lash out.
To make you angery.
Brainwashed, my mind never concluded that I was not the source of your failures.

Now as you sleep I stand over you, contemplating my choices.
I hear one particular idea in my ear & it's being whispered by many soft voices.  I listen carefully,
not sure that it will prove to be right.
Quickly dismissing this ill thought I think of safer ways to provide some amends.
All I want is to feel comfortable & unconditionally loved by someone who will always be close.
Realizing that I already have that person, I decide he means the most. I pack what I need & gather the sleeping soul who gives me the support I need.
I grab the keys to the car & load up, praying silently to myself, hoping to succeed. I am officially ready to begin a new life. No material possessions in hand.
For the first time I am on my own.
I will never depend on you to stand.
On my own.
Never again.