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paraboxer Member
since 2002-11-10
Posts 121Maryland, USA |
(AN: You might want to read To My Lili Marlene to get a better idea of this. It's about a lady friend I fell in love with in December. In September I found out she has a boyfriend and my world was shattered.) Night Its always worst at night. Where I suffer alone by the moonlight. Broken hearted, alone and dejected. By bliss and true love was I rejected. When I see couples walking in love. "Almighty God Enough! Enough!" to God above. I am a soul that is abandoned and lost. A broken heart is too high a cost. I saw you together, you seemed happy and content. I want you to be happy, though I'm ragged and rent. Even if it means I must suffer through my night. As long as you're happy I'll endure my plight. Love decreed I'd not find you in my arms. Instead for him are meant your charms. As long as your happy to love him. I'll bear it and grin, my circumstances grim. It still is at the worst at night. Where I feel the loss of my love's inner light. Romantic love, something I've felt but never known. I've never shined through in what I've shown. I once believed truly in the greatness of love. A blessing from the great Lord above. But now, it's hard to do, with a heart broken. My spirit is torn to its core, love unspoken. If your happiness is bought with my silent tears. So be it. I stil envy my dating peers. They've all got somebody that loves in return. All I have is heartbreak's merciless burn. The night brings the greatest of my pain. My dreams an oasis, a dream of my Lili Marlene. Then I wake to cold and hard facts. I still smile, when you do at my kind acts. But my smile is becoming hard to find. I feel like pain and angst have all combined. Upon me so I suffer and hurt from dusk to daylight. In four days it'll be Homecoming Night. It will be the hardest day of my life. One of angst and much strife. Like every other homecoming has been to me. Lead on, strung along and then cut with no mercy. You differ from them, for you're still my friend. However incognizant of my loss and angst blend. I love it when I can make you smile. I can beam and run many a mile. I'm so vulnerable to you. And that's sadly true. All you have to do is smile. And I can run many a mile. And I'm happy beyong all reason. Through till the spring season. Then I'll see you with him, and feel isolated. Rejected, destroyed, worthless and devastated. My heart is broken, and I feel the deep pangs. Of rejection by love, it showed me her fangs. There's a pervasive lonely emptiness within. But you love him, so I'll bear it and grin. I've never felt loved in return. When is it to be my turn? I thought it was so until bleak September. Such a contrast from sweet December. Where I realized I loved you and felt no fear. Now pain and agony are mine to bear without peer. So much for letting myself love yet again. I only returned with hurt and pain. What made me think you'd love me? When more desireable men pursue thee. What's so special about the nice guy? No one hears the happy guy cry. It seems nice guys finish last. A lesson I should've learned from loves past. You'll always have a special place in my heart. Though all around me is torn apart. My soul may be torn and rent. But my will to go on is not bent. It still is the very worst at night. Lord, help me in my plight. [This message has been edited by paraboxer (10-23-2003 06:57 AM).] |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) Oh Carl, as always just let me say how sorry I am for your heartache but I truly believe she thinks of you too and whatever happens she wishes you true happiness and if she doesn't take your hand, you will find daylight in someone who has her charm! (sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, I send sunshine hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Carl, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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paraboxer Member
since 2002-11-10
Posts 121Maryland, USA |
Mistletoe Angel, thanks for your support. Hopefully the night will come to past and I shall see the dawn. My friendship with her is keeping me going now... |
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