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Ethan Halo
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since 2000-04-28
Posts 793
on the roof again

0 posted 2000-07-10 04:04 PM


the Mask i wear


wake up in the morning to the same old face.
sore eyes with an insomnia suitcase
hangin' underneath on tear-streaked cheeks.
a dilapidated smile unused for weeks.
reach out and turn the faucet on;
wash off the grimy suit that i have donned.
there's already yelling through the bathroom door.
"You'd better hurry up or you'll get some more."
more swings to my back, more swings to my face.
wish the bus came sooner so i could escape.
i reach into the drawer for my happy Mask
and hope it answers the questions i know my friends will ask.

"Oh, I just fell down some stairs."
"No, I don't see a bruise there."
"I tripped over my friend's skateboard..."
"No, I'm sure that mark was there before."

i look out the window from the very back seat.
i'd want to die, but i feel too weak.
i get off the bus with my Mask on;
say a prayer to make the day be long.
and while my friends all care, they just don't know.
the place i fear is the place called home.
so i paint a bright smile onto my Mask
and hope it answers all those questions they ask.

"Oh, I just fell down some stairs."
"No, I don't see a bruise there."
"I tripped over my friend's skateboard..."
"No, I'm sure that mark was there before."

when the bell rings at the end of the day,
i have to leave a world where i feel safe.
and the same yellow bus that took me away,
brings me back to the world i hate.
to my room and shut the door real tight.
concentrate on homework with all my might.
i hope they just yell at each other tonight.
cause tonight i don't have the strength to fight.
but i know you'll scream things to make me feel small.
and you'll take your swings 'til your hands are raw.
and i'll lie the answers to the questions they'll ask
so nobody sees the tears beneath my Mask.

"Look at all the things that you've done wrong."
Close my eyes and put the Mask back on.
My eye is black and my smile is cracked,
but no one can touch the Me behind the Mask.
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We all got our demons.
We all got somethin' to atone for.




[This message has been edited by Ethan_Halo (edited 07-10-2000).]

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redheart angrybraids
Member
since 2000-04-16
Posts 410
honolulu, hawaii
1 posted 2000-07-10 04:11 PM


super intense, has this been your life, i love all the description, though this was really sad.

Kindly,
Redheart Angrybraids

Janet Marie
Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

2 posted 2000-07-10 04:27 PM


Ethan,
you take my words and my heart with this one.
I'm sorry, and I understand ... very well.
love ya,
jm

I think I could need - this in my life
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you
MB20

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