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Jeffrey Carter
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0 posted 2000-07-02 05:24 PM


Surviving Yet Not Living

Lost, alone and scared
Somewhere in this night
Blinded by a love once held
No switch to trip the light
I shiver at the sound
Of wolves howling at the sky
Calling as if beckoning me
To kiss this life good-bye
I scream out at the silence
To chase the sound away
But the wolves just keep howling
Asking me to come out and play

Hello!, Hello!, Hello!
Someone!, Someone!, Someone!
The echo is all I here
Bouncing back and forth
Blackness crashing all around
In the silence of these halls
Nothing, do my hands caress
As I reach out to find a wall
Not a glimmer of hope do I foresee
Within this hallowed tomb
Not living, just surviving
My mind in a padded room

Seeking for the shelter
Of her memory's loving arms
A safe harbour in this journey
To keep me from all harm
Yet, nothing but blackness
Do these eyes ever see
Seeking, finding nothing
But this perverted misery
No chance to find myself
Without this heartache's spell
Yet, not daring to fold the cards
Of which this life has dealt

by:  Jeffrey Carter


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All my love,
Jeffrey






[This message has been edited by Jeffrey Carter (edited 07-03-2000).]

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1 posted 2000-07-02 05:33 PM


Jeffery:

Such a poem full of despair, but so well written, if I may even say beautifully written. Yes, this is your darkest poem, but your talent shines through. I relate because I am going through something similar to this, expect about a man of course. What a hopeless feeling it is to live, but only be existing or surviving.  Hugs to you my friend.

Take care,
Melissa Honeybee


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2 posted 2000-07-02 05:43 PM


Jeffery, a very dark poem. intense. excellent writing. It helps to put these thoughts on paper, I hope this poem will some of your pain, take care.

A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it, bearing within him the image of a cathedral. Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

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3 posted 2000-07-02 05:47 PM


darkly beautiful Jeff..
very well written and strong impact of emotions
i love the imagery and the last verse is excellent...
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4 posted 2000-07-02 06:29 PM


Great writing, Jeffrey. I'm glad you're not willing to throw in the cards. That's never the answer. Ups and downs, light and dark, fear and peace are all parts of life to be enjoyed, to learn from or grow through. But you know that. Again, great writing!

Denise

p.s. in your third stanza, fourth line you have a typo...the word from is there twice.

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5 posted 2000-07-02 06:37 PM


Thank you all for your kind words

First, let me say this is just a poem, not reflective of anything going on in my life at this time (Thank God)

p.s. Thanks for telling me about the typo Denise

All my love,
Jeffrey



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6 posted 2000-07-02 07:41 PM


Jeffrey,

Happy to hear this is not how you feel.  Very powerful and dark writing my friend.  Well done though.  The images that come to mind are haunting.  Like I am there too.  

Great writing!!  

LW


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--William Wordsworth

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7 posted 2000-07-02 09:04 PM


I'm glad this is not drawn from personal feeling, that tells me you have successfully expressed emotion as an escape from it, which means you have used imagination to the utmost.
I hope that made sense!!!

A word is dead
When it is said,
Some say.
I say it just
Begins to live
That day.
Emily Dickinson

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8 posted 2000-07-02 09:10 PM


Uh, whatever Rose said   Excellent work, Jeffrey, and good use of imagination  
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9 posted 2000-07-02 10:03 PM


This poem just simply shows your talents and the versatility to your writing my friend.  Excellent work!

Marina


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10 posted 2000-07-02 10:04 PM


Good writing Jeffrey, and I would have to agree that it is very dark, yet there's some hope in that ending--"Yet, not daring to fold the cards, Of which this life has dealt"
Marie~

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11 posted 2000-07-02 10:09 PM


Jeffrey~
This IS good writing, my friend.
~*Marge*~


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12 posted 2000-07-03 12:23 PM


Jenn,Kathleen, Balladeer LOL, Marina, Marie, and Marge...

Thank you all so very much, I truly do appreciate your kindness

(((HUGS))) to you all

All my love,
Jeffrey


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13 posted 2000-07-03 09:18 AM


>>>> i want my nite light pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee

Kay-lynn
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14 posted 2000-07-03 10:35 AM


"not living, just surviving"
wow, sadly we can probably all connect with this, its those "just surviving" times though that make us appreciated the "living" times...hope you feel like living soon  

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15 posted 2000-07-03 10:55 AM


I love the urgency in this Jeffrey ... beautifully expressed.  I'm glad to read it's only imagination, but you've penned this so well ... I was getting worried there for a minute!  Great writing!  

Best wishes,
/Kit

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16 posted 2000-07-03 10:58 AM


Theres always a dark side to life...being able to see it without living it is a great talent...and a great blessing...very well written
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17 posted 2000-07-03 11:03 AM


Jeffery~ WOW! Excellent! -SEA

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18 posted 2000-07-03 11:20 AM


No chance to find myself
Without this heartache's spell
Yet, not daring to fold the cards
Of which this life has dealt

.....
Most part of the life, one survives most of it and calls it living... but is it actually living? A question that one always has to keep in perspective...

Jeffery,
You have written this poem very well... just like I have come to expect from you...

Amazing images throughout..

regards, sudhir

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19 posted 2000-07-03 12:37 PM


the tone of this poem was urgent and intense and i could feel my heart beating a little bit faster and my eyes reading through the poem a bit faster...if that was what you were aiming for in the reader, then i must say you have succeeded in this reader
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20 posted 2000-07-03 06:47 PM


Jeffrey-
It is certainly dark...and the images are haunting, but it is EXCELLENT! I enjoy reading your work! I certainly enjoyed working with you. Your talent just flows so beautifully. OH, please check your ICQ messages.
love & all,
-Holly


I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of.
Michel de Montaigne


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21 posted 2000-07-03 07:41 PM


Jeffrey, Yes I agree there are times where you can feel like you killed yourself without killing yourself and you just survive, your piece explains that well.  Sometimes that darkest time brings out overwhelming feelings, hugs to you on communicating those feelings so strongly.
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22 posted 2000-07-03 07:57 PM


keep this poem, file it away somewhere.  When you bring it out five years from now, or even two years from now, you won't believe you felt this way, and will quietly file it away again.

Corinne

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23 posted 2000-07-03 09:44 PM


Y'know...I always seem to be late....it's because I'm in D'nile, with out the requisite paddle...you said this one for me JC,  I thank you much...well done...
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24 posted 2000-07-04 01:29 PM


Kay-Lynn Carew   

Corazon, Yep, I can certainly relate to that, but as I said this is just a poem

Kit, Thank you for your concern and for the vote of confidence

Paula, Thank you for that great compliment

SEA, Thank you for the WOW!!!

Sudhir, Very good question my friend Thank you for that ponder

Kaile, Now that's a compliment

Holly, Thank you, I enjoyed working with you as well...Huh? ICQ? What's that?  LOL

Gemini, (which just happens to be my sign btw) Thank you

Corrine, Thank you, but again this is just a poem  

Serenity, Hmmmm....so that's where the words came from....you sent through mental telepathy didn't you?    LOL



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