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Silent soul
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0 posted 2000-06-21 06:20 PM


This poem I wrote when I was shall I say mad and thought about doing something I knew I shouldn't doas in cutting if any of you know what that is but don't worry i haven't done it yet you dont know what it is ask me!

I've thought about it alot
I just don't want to get caught
Will it take away my pain and fear
or will I have guilt throughout the year?
I've never done it before
will it be the cure?
I'm afraid to try
will I get caught up in its lie?

I know if someone finds out they'll say
Its not a good habit just throw it away
and then I'll say its my damn life
Its the only thing I have to get rid of pain and strife
No one can help me not even you
So go away and just let me be blue
But I know deep down its not right
maybe someone could show me the light

bye 4 now
Silent

ps its long but please reply

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1 posted 2000-06-21 08:02 PM


Silent Soul~ ok, I'll bite... what is it you are referring to- cutting for me was skipping school- so tell me, what is it?!
-SEA

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Silent soul
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2 posted 2000-06-21 10:11 PM


Ok well I'll tell you and I know its bad any wayz cutting is when you get a razor and like cut your arms to make them bleed you can cut either deep or not deep and it makes some peoples problems seem less and helps them forget about their pain and it can be very addicted i havent started but ive thought about it so tell me what ya think and people dont be afraid to reply I want people to reply thanks

bye 4 now
Silent

amazon_lover
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3 posted 2000-06-21 10:15 PM


Hi SS
Firstly when I read this poem I felt terribly bad about this...I have thought of banging my head into wall when I was let down by the person I loved...Its diffficult to control such things...but its going to ruin you..your physical and mental health..I dont know what I'm saying..but stay calm..I have faced it..but I endured the pain..

Sincerely
A_L

Silent soul
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4 posted 2000-06-21 11:27 PM


thanks for replying

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5 posted 2000-06-22 12:21 PM


Silent Soul~ Wow! Cutting does NOT sound like any kind of answer! This really scares me, I don't know what kind of pain you are feeling or who hurt you, but cutting yourself isn't how to HEAL yourself. It frankly sounds retarded. (sorry no offence meant to anyone) Talking to someone-anyone sounds better. I don't have all the answers, when I hurt, I write poetry, not always very good, but it makes me feel better. I don't understand how hurting yourself can make you feel better...do something positive for yourself, not distructive. If this is a "cool" thing or "in" thing believe me it will be "out" soon enough. Please don't hurt yourself. Ok?   -SEA

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Silent soul
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6 posted 2000-06-22 09:54 PM


thanks for replying and i know its wrong no ones really done anything to me

bye 4 now
Silent

SorrowsMystress
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7 posted 2000-06-23 03:10 AM


If you are refering to cutting in the term that I know it (from experience), you will harm (or cut) on yourself.... kind of like hurting yourself to see if you still feel  (as in the famous words of Trent Reznor). I know about this well. I have scars up and down my arms, throat, legs and stomach from cutting.  Scars that I have had for about 9 years now... They don't go away. And it doesn't take the pain away.  I would get an adreniline rush out of it... hurt myself like I so thought I deserved.  And it made me feel better.... TEMPORARILY!!!  The emotional scars cut a lot deeper and stay a lot longer, even show up better than those you can inflict upon yourself. And I am now embarassed to show my scars. People ask me all the time what happened. I was a teenager then (which is the most common age for this to happen) And now that I'm older, I realized what a waste it was. My body is a gift, and as much as I disliked it, I now see it as a blessing. I could be a lot worse than I am.  There are easier ways to take the pain away.... talk to someone... go get therapy (I know that when people told me to go get therapy when I was into this, I would just roll my eyes and forget about it... but trust me, It works! they got me on meds that helped me out a lot and gave me an unbiased ear to listen to my problems).  Another good thing is just realize that things really could be worse. There's so many things that you have that you're probably taking for granted... (I've lived a crappy life, and even I know that it could have been worse that what I already had).  ok, I think I've been on my soap box long enough.  Just trust me, I give good advise. And the best people to listen to are those that have been there. And I'm just barely out of my adolescent years, and I'm still learning. But I know that once I realized to take everything as a learning experience, I became a lot wiser and a lot happier.

"It was my love that did us both to death. " -Sylvia Plath


Jeremiah Johnson
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8 posted 2000-06-23 04:18 AM


well i can say i to have felt this way and started doing pot i stoped and found out that it diden't help only made it worse and messed up some of my mind and now i'm have a even harder time in school. but hey before you do anything i have a poem i wrote about drugs and such its called control and i'll be posting it later today in Dark passions please all of you read it. its an important issue.

I'm a dying romantic and when i can no longer write i can no longer live -Jeremiah Johnson-


angelswing
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9 posted 2000-06-23 04:29 AM


Silent soul, I have often felt like this and done it myself, until i FOUND A better way to release my aggresion and punish myself, it is something only you can solve, as you need to be happy about yourself, firstly try to relax, and whatever happens always stay calm and go at your own speed, let the rest of the world slow down, if you have the impulse to feel pain, which I know can be great, instead of doing yourself major damage with a razor/knife try punching a hard wall a few times and you will find it releaves you quite well without doing to much damage . Try getting a new hobby or meaning in your life to give you a sence of purpose . And abouve all else don't let what you do to yourself hurt others who care for you .
Hope I was of some assistance .
L.of.L. Tom .


Insanity is a perfectly normal responce to an abnormal world -R.D.Laing.-

Silent soul
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10 posted 2000-06-23 05:47 PM


Thanks you guys for helping yall help alot better than some people I guess because i dont know yall and just helps me if i tell people i dont know i mean yeah i may seem happy to my family but i do feel hurt inside from just things people say
bye 4 now
Silent

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