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You Have Won...a letter
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You Have Won...a letter |
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MMoonchild Senior Member
since 2000-07-13
Posts 1715PA 
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You Have Won...a letter You and she have accomplished exactly what you both set out to do to me... and you have won. I can't be hurt anymore than you have hurt me, in the past few days. In 12 days, you have destroyed me emotionally, physically and even spiritually. All I ever asked was for you to do it the right way, respecting our years together. But you couldn't... You had to lie and stay out each night and wear me down... You are not the man I married, maybe you never were. All I can say now is you must have never thought of me, in any of these years, as someone, worthwhile. I never made you marry me. I never kept you from doing anything that benefitted you. In fact you probably would have failed a lot sooner, if it wasn't for me. You preferred the alcohol for the last three years, making me into an invalid, the same as you, not able to function in this town, due to embarassment never knowing when you were coming home. You destroyed any future moneys we had. You refused to help yourself or me to understand what was wrong when probably, there was a time period we could have helped each other. You have left me with nothing, abandoned me, after over 30 years of caring for you. I know the last several were not smooth, but I always hoped you would want to try and help me understand and do whatever needed, to make things better. I hope you will be very happy with her, but don't think she hasn't played a part in this either. For if she was the person you admire and care for now, and cared about others, she would have made sure we had finished what needed to be finished between us and would have refused your advances, if any. You were different, than the others in your crowd, when I first met you.. You were gentle and caring and tender and over the years you lost that. My frustration with you caused me to raise my voice when you would walk by and never discuss business or anything with me. I am not blameless...but at least I can say I tried...Can you? Never did we celebrate anything of importance such as anniversaries or birthdays, unless I initiated it. Never did your cards of late mean what you felt and I knew it. Many times...I just wished you would have let me show you how much I cared and loved you, but you wouldn't even pay attention or be around enough to allow me that chance. You have broken my heart, my soul and spirit and I don't think I can survive...... And, yes, you and she have won... |
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taramw Senior Member
since 2000-06-08
Posts 738 |
Ohhh.... this is such a heartfelt poem... I really felt your pain - feel!  When things like this happen, it really makes you wonder sometimes. You've really expressed it well here. Thanks for sharing  PS: Take care."A poem should not mean, but be" - Archibald MacLeish |
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LM Senior Member
since 2000-08-03
Posts 585 |
Maureen...I'm so sorry you're going through this, it's does hurt, I'm sure, but you can't give up and let yourself think that they won! They didn't, you won! Maybe you don't see it now, but after a while someone so much better will come along and will open up your eyes to see that this man you're talking about is not worth even your pitty. He's an alcoholic and not much of a person if you ask me... Thanks for sharing with us. Have a good luck! |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Let that pain out Moonchild and I can feel the strength in your words...you will make it day by day hon...believe that...James |
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boji stone Member
since 2000-08-13
Posts 62USA |
maureen, You know how very sorry I am about all of this, but believe you me, I don't either he or she is getting any prize. I want you to know you are one special lady.....who doesn't deserve this pain. What's the old saying, what goes around comes around. Also remember "this too shall pass" love to you, bj ~the breath, a mystery of it's own ~~ |
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bluebrdy65 Member
since 2000-05-16
Posts 276Gladys, |
Im so so sorry for your pain I am experiencing something extremely similar it all hurts so much. good luck with your life and I hope things get better |
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