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Cerenity
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0 posted 2000-09-01 12:36 PM



Just Happens To Be Me


A realization is becoming clear,
weather it is simply just time
passing, the gaining of wisdom
or hardship win or loose
something is in lighting me.

You are the father I never had,
a lover meant to be,
you are sweet sister delight
I dreamed of every night.

You are the soul mate that never
found their way, true friend
I thought one should be. The child
never born lost deep in memories.

Long distant aunt that never became
part of my history. School mate
made up just so I would have company
on those long stretched out days
of adolescence gone astray.

You are all I could have had.
you are all the one’s
I wanted to be with me in my life.

This realization coming so crystal
clear is that all of my
wanting was always right in front
of me, for I am all that I
need from those who didn’t care.
I am the total sum I’ll
ever need.

So father, lover, sweet sister delight
don’t worry I ask no more
of you, go about your lives in
your misery.

Children, school mates, aunts and
the like, I have found
the one who will take care of me.

So crystal clear all those fantasy’s
do not need them haunting
me, I now have found someone I
can love, trust and not be
afraid of and that just happens
to be me.


By, Cerenity




"God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist.
We have to be reminded that He exist!"

(Writer Unknown)


© Copyright 2000 Ellen Ware - All Rights Reserved
silentsky
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since 2000-08-09
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1 posted 2000-09-01 12:52 PM


a really beautiful poem.
i hope i can be everything for myself one day....
thanks
shira

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2 posted 2000-09-01 02:10 AM


I loved the surprised ending. Great work. Just fabulous.            

Ronil (The sweet sound of summer sends serenity through my soul searching for that evermore solitude.)



Rosebud1229
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since 2000-04-05
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3 posted 2000-09-01 02:48 PM


this is a wonderful poem, and your absolutely right when we begin to look at ourselves and take care us ourselves which is so hard at times to do things have to get better, thx so much
Deranger
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4 posted 2000-09-01 04:48 PM


“So crystal clear all those fantasy’s
do not need them haunting
me, I now have found someone I
can love, trust and not be
afraid of and that just happens
to be me.”

That’s a powerful hunk of words.  Jeez, I wish I had half that (any) respect for my useless self…
Good work and good job discovering yourself.



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Spreading insanity, one post at a time

“Writing about darkness comes easily for me. I just close my eyes and write what I

LM
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since 2000-08-03
Posts 585

5 posted 2000-09-02 04:12 AM


Wow... this is such a powerful poem. If I would ever feel like that it would surely be a miracle... I think I always like the neighbour better than myself... Wow!
I'm happy you feel this way, it's a great motto for life!

Cerenity
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since 2000-02-16
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Escondido-California
6 posted 2000-09-02 10:12 AM


Hi Everyone,

Thank you for you wonderful replys, I hate to admit but I live a life of the exact opposite than this poem that is why I wrote it so just maybe I could start heading down that road of not leting everyone hurt and abuse me, I want SO VERY BADLY to be able to walk with my head held high and not look down at people but not always be afraid of them and I know that the first place I have to start is by learning to love ME, but that is a really hard thing to do, thank you again.

Love, Cerenity


"God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist.
We have to be reminded that He exist!"

(Writer Unknown)


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7 posted 2000-09-03 10:42 PM


You hit it right on the head Cerenity. . . you HAVE to love yourself. . . it's what all of us must do. . . only then can you get the power that you need. . . you can do it. . . I know that you can. . .

Excellent poem!!!  

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That which gives light must endure burning
--Victor Frankl


sonjes
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since 2000-02-18
Posts 564
North Carolina
8 posted 2000-09-04 06:21 AM


Hmmm...yes, sometimes some people really need to find themselves and learn how to be totally independent...but don't knock the soul mate thing.   Even though I think there's times when I would definitely make my best soul mate. I'm so picky!! LOL
  Very nice poem, Cerenity...it sounds like you are on the righ track with this and you penned it extremely well.

Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence.
-Enigma


Cerenity
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9 posted 2000-09-04 06:18 PM


Hi Everyone,

Thank you so much for your loving replys, I am kind of brain dead at the moment or I would say more.

Love to all, Cerenity


"God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist.
We have to be reminded that He exist!"

(Writer Unknown)


Scarlet Lady
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since 2000-02-11
Posts 242
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10 posted 2000-09-05 02:04 AM


Cerenity......You write such deep heart reaching poetry,  with so much feeling!  A good poem to me....is this.....when it moves the soul,  and this definitely hit my heart til the point of  attack!  Reminded me soooooo much of me.  Thank you soooo much for sharing it, it showed so much truth and conviction.   I really enjoyed it...and SAVED it!
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11 posted 2000-09-05 05:59 PM


Cerenity, I wish I could be this together myself. I know it would make a big difference, wouldn't it. Very touching poem. Take care.
Catalinamoon

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