»
Archives
»
Dark Poetry #2
»
You'll Never know What You Lost: Untill.
| Dark Poetry #2 |
|
You'll Never know What You Lost: Untill. |
|
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
To open a hand < !signature-->in love is more than one can understand To let one fly You’ll never know just what you lost when you forgot to say goodbye The tears of pain may rain down as my soul drains life upon the ground. Running as fast as I can to a corner and hide the tears within a cooling soul, a heart chills over. recapping existence trying to finding a reason to go on. My white Dove has landed upon another brow. She dates another this night of woe Oh dearest of all, help me in my need I find my heart has stopped within time. my breath labors drawing hard my eyes don’t seem to see anymore. I’ll wake in the morning if I sleep to find a new day with an old problem how to face this day again how to face loneliness. again. I can’t do it. not again. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. [This message has been edited by Joel the wolf (edited 06-16-2000).] |
||
| © Copyright 2000 Joel. - All Rights Reserved | |||
|
Forrest Cain Member
since 2000-04-21
Posts 306Chas.,W.V. USA |
Loosing a girlfriend is like a death. We must go through a grief process. Denial, barganing,anger, depression, and finally acceptance. I felt your pain which means you have communicated your poetry to me. but you still need time to heal. Keep writing and defining your feelings. And would you want this girl to be a mother to your children. At ayoung age we often confuse our need for love with love. Start dating again I hit the jackpot when I went to nursing school. They taught me how to love and I don`t mean sex. Good luck forrest |
||
|
taramw Senior Member
since 2000-06-08
Posts 738 |
Hmm... very touching indeed. I especially like how you ended your poem. Every word in it's place... just where it should be.  Great work! |
||
|
EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
I remember the pain and feelings of which you write. I used to think I could never love again, I was wrong! God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me. ~Unknown |
||
|
Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Someone who loves me recently told me "It is easier to kill love than to nurture it." I'll never forget it as long as I live. Kathleen "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace." Elizabeth Barrett Browning |
||
|
lotharingia Senior Member
since 2000-06-04
Posts 897saarbruecken, Germany |
What a painful poem, Joel, I especially like the way it trickles out to the final anticlimax, and these lines: "The tears of pain may rain down as my soul drains life upon the ground." Are particularly beautiful. I can *feel* the life energy soaking away. Makes me want to hug the person in the poem! Lotharingia "For God's sake, he's a poet. Poets are meant to feel miserable. Otherwise, what the hell are they here for? What are they going to write about?" Tom Holland |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Forest, thank you for your reply, Love? yes I know what love is, I'm fifty, and have had many in life that I have loved and lust. I know the difference. She is more than a girl friend, I know the feeling. And I know the difference. I have written about her more in the forums than anything else, she is the love of my life. She brought be back from the dead with a kiss. But thank you for your input. tamraw, thank you, yes it seem to fit. Eagleone, I remember some of your post, I know what you mean, and thank you for the advise, but you also know my writings on her and what she means to me. thank you again. Irish Rose, my dear sweet lady, you have been a friend with all your E's and words of kindness, I thank you so much. Easier to kill? I have said so many times of how much I love W. D. that I seem to run over the same things again, and again. but I do, she will have to beat me away with a club, even then I will still love her, I'm not the kind to give up as you well know. I'm still waiting outside the castle walls, she is still whispering I love you on the night winds, and I'll wait patiently out side the gates she peaks over, even in stormy weather. Thank you again for all your words of wisdom. love you kid. lotharingia, thank you for the hug, I'll take it and more. yes my heart is in the dirt tonight. W. D. means more to me than life it's self, I believe she is trying to see exactly where I fit into her life, she isn't one to make a commitment on the fly, she doesn't know if she want's to commit to me for the rest of her life, But if she does it will be for the rest of our lives. she is solid in life, works two jobs, supports those that don't need to be supported. (a grown kid) I really have no heart without her. I don't say this on the fly ether, those that know me, know I say what I mean. I know I'll hear that I'll get over it if it goes bad, but if you know me, you know that I won't. This will be one cross I can't carry. Love you all. thanks Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
SpitFire Member Elite
since 2000-04-19
Posts 2396 |
~Joel,...*sigh*. Oh,..."The tears of pain may rain down as my soul drains life upon the ground"....this is so heavy. So heavy. This poem of yours tightly clenches my heart in it's fist. Really,...especially after the E...let it out...I'm not sure what to say...I'm here. I know for damn sure that you mean what you say,..and say what you mean. From all I have learned,...WD is your heart. I believe in you Joel and Please take care of yourself on this night....always. Love ya. *Peace. |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
If ever an Angel on earth kid you are, Some day we will meet. I must hold this angel some day. To touch a small piece of heaven on earth, will be to much, but for a dying wish. To know where I go and who will be there. Thank you kid. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Joel~ You touch me tenderly with your pain. Keep the avenue to her open .... and pray she'll find her way back to your heart. If she does not ... it would be such a loss. Your love can go on ... even if she flies another direction. It won't be easy ... but love often isn't. Great big hugs to you, my aching friend. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
I'll take the hug Marge, I know I'm going to need it Sat, night. God I hate this. This is killing me. I feel like a mouse in one of those spinning things, I think that if I run I can get away from my pain but it is there in front of me every breath I take. God I love her so. hell I can't see the screen now... The/nks Marge. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Joel my similar heart, I know how you feel I do. You are not the first to face such pain. Now is the time to look around you and see those that do love you hon, for there are others who do, even the love of friendship is better than no love at all. I thrive on friendship love!! I love you hon and I believe the problem lies within her not you.*hugs* email me anytime my friend anytime.. Love ya! I'll tell you this...... No eternal reward will forgive us now for wasting the dawn..... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thanks kid. I know I can E you. But tonight I'm just going to get drunk I think, hell it's been so long I can't remember?? yea maybe two years ago. I had ?? a hard time loosing a friend, I don't think I'll reply tonight maybe just read. hell I don't know, her date is tonight. I told her I wasn't mad, I didn't tell her I wouldn't hurt. I guess it's a dark night all around. haha crud. love ya kid. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
Portia Member
since 2000-05-18
Posts 157 |
Your words are so lonely and they thud terribly. What can I say? I know that this poetry reflects your love andyour life and I only wish to tell you I am here for you and I hope that your writing is a catharsis. |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thanks portia, for taking the time to read this. it's full of garbage, from a bad night. A storm I'll have to ride out. love ya kid. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
Click Member
since 2000-06-11
Posts 202USA |
Joel!! You nailed that feeling!!! I get ya!! thanks for sharing!!! I will have a cold beer wit ya!!! I remember how this feels!!! WOW!! good wright!! Click |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Hey Click, thanks a lot, Well I'm up early, no hang over haha... I'd make a perfect drunk I never get hang overs the next. hahaha I'm sorry you do know this feeling, it shouldn't be. But ?? poop happens. hell I just want to curl and crook. Thanks all. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
Danny Holloway Member Elite
since 2000-01-15
Posts 2034Tulsa, OK |
The style of this poem helped create the hurtful expression that rains from the words. Good writing. |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thanks Dan, that means a lot. I'm just trying to take a breath today. That's all. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
fractal007 Senior Member
since 2000-06-01
Posts 1958 |
Very good writing.  I feel for u. Though I've never lost a girlfriend before, I still have felt the kind of dread and sorrow you feel. We are the hollow men We are the stuffed men Leaning together Headpiece filled with straw. Alas! Our dried voices, when We whisper together Are quiet and meaningless As wind in dry grass Or rats' feet over broken glass In our dry cellar Shape without form, shade without color, Paralyzed force, gesture without motion; --T.S. Eliot |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thank you fractal007, it's to bad you know this pain, I wouldn't wish it on anything. Thanks for the reply. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
tac Junior Member
since 2000-06-10
Posts 28New Jersey |
I understand what you are feeling... Makes you want to just scream Aaaaaaaarrrrrrghhhh!!!!! I am trying to recover from a love that is pushing me away... (I believe that she loves me but I did some things to hurt her and now I realize that I messed up and she doesn't want to come back to me) The following is an exerpt from a letter I am thinking of sending her. "Each day I think of only you. I see outline of your face in everything I look at. Every song I hear is about you. I close my eyes and I see your smile. I reach out my hand and feel your touch. The thought that you and I may never share our love again is devastating to me. As much as it hurts, I must not close my heart to you, I am willing to withstand the pain as long as there is a glimmer of hope that somehow you will find the strength to come back to me." |
||
|
Nancee Junior Member
since 2000-06-17
Posts 45Australia |
I feel I must apologize. May a wandering soul be excused for intruding on your pain and glimpsing the passion and strength that your fellows offer. |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Tac, if you understand what I'm feeling then I ?? pity you, no one should go threw this. It is so much pain that I don't understand it anymore. Nancee you don't have to be excused, not from me, a passing soul is ok. And now you are within that number of friends. thank you. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
Justbleu Member Elite
since 1999-08-31
Posts 3329Oregon, Originally From Alaska :) |
Pain that runs deep Of a love lost in time Memories of passion Run throbbing through the mind Intense aching of the soul Twisting and turning like a rope All life shattering in this instance Creating all for no hope Bombarded every second An insanity of this life Why do I hurt myself Knowing how it all ends Of a time within a century I will be well dead Yikers....I do not know where that came from...I spooked myself!! I am not usually like this...you inspired and touched a sore spot in me I guess!! I can tell your poem quite touched me!! TY for sharing!! Bridgette  < !signature--> "Creation of woman from the rib of Man: She was not made from his head to top him; nor out of his feet to be trampled upon by him; but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be loved." -Unknown [This message has been edited by Justbleu (edited 06-21-2000).] |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Justbleu, thanks for the visit, and yes that's what we try for, to let our poems touch someone. and by the looks it has. Joel. |
||
|
ChibiDeathscythe Member
since 2000-06-09
Posts 128 |
Running as fast as I can to a corner and hide the tears within a cooling soul, a heart chills over. I can relate to this. Whenever something traumatic or bad happens to me, I withdraw myself to grieve and vent. I can't face things sometimes. Your work has deeply touched me. "Suicides have already betrayed the body. Still born, they don't always die, bu dazzled, they can't forget a drug so sweet that even children would |
||
|
catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
This was so heart wrenching. I feel your pain. I hope it works out with your lady. She is obviously making a big mistake with this other man. I know how hard it is to go through this kind of scene. It has played out in my life several times, and is never any easier. Take care. Sandra |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
ChibiDeathscythe, yes it's not that I'm afraid and hide, it's that I keep myself locked up not to run amuck, I could do great damage with this beast inside. catalinamoon, thank you so much, I feel for you that it does hit home for you, it should never be this way, you are suppose to find your one and true love and then get married and live happily ever after. This is what I want, why can't I have it, god this is driving me insane. I love her so much. she is everything to me. She is my last hope in this screwed up world. God I love her so much. ok I'm done. Joel.. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Joel, just wanted to tell you to hang on, and maybe it will work out. But if it doesn't, you have to know she is not truly your last hope in the world. Because if she was, she would love you better. I wish I knew why life goes this way for some of us. I grew up with the dream that the one special man would come to me and I would be happy ever after. Ah, Disney hurt us in ways he can never know. I truly have been where you are now. And shockingly, more than once, have I thought I was losing the great and only love of my life. Only later to have someone else make me hurt just as much. Its a cycle of pain and all we can do is survive it, and know that having a great love within us, is always better than being empty. There have been times when I felt that there was no one I truly loved. And those times hurt almost as much as the unrequited love. One other thought..when I love someone , it never goes completely away, though years may separate us. Many have thought it strange that I could say I still love someone from my past, and love someone new also. But it happened, so I know its possible. Do you know the Wordsworth Poem, "Though Nothing can bring back the hour of Splendor in the Grass.....I will grieve not, but rather find strength in what remains behind.." It always gives me hope and a reason to continue. Well sorry to babble on since i am a complete stranger to you. I felt the need to share, because I see you are in such intense pain and it feels so fruitless sometimes.And though it seems simplistic, it is a fact that if someone does not love us as we love them, as we deserve to be loved, then that person is losing a wonderful thing, and is not entitled to be given the power to destroy our lives. Take care. Sandra |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thank you so much, catalinamoon, ( Sandra) A new comer maybe, but I put myself on line as an open book and left it open. She (White Dove) has no power to destroy my life from here on, only I do. I know that, not to sound hard really I appreciate all your wisdom in this matter, I also have been in and out of love, my last one lasted 20 years and two children later. I will never open up like this with another women again, they will never have my heart again ever, I know it sounds hard and it is, I know exactly what I say, and do, and I know the consequences of this action. And I know this life I had it before this, I had taken this one chance in life it was my decision then and it will be again, we never give power to other people to hurt or destroy us only we can do that to our selves, I know this action all to well. I love no one in the past like this, and no one in the future will ever have a chance to demonstrate the difference to me. I won’t close up to the world but I will to my heart, I may howl about it in the night and here, but that’s all. finis. Joel.< !signature--> I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. [This message has been edited by Joel the wolf (edited 06-21-2000).] |
||
|
Bustem57 Member
since 2000-06-09
Posts 98 |
Joel I too had lost one near to my heart and see them depart from me with another. My heart felt like a ton of bricks!! Be strong my friend be strong!! |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Bustem57, I feel for you my friend, but strength has left me, I've tried to contact W.D. with no returns, She I guess has ?? hell I just don't know. But strength has left me, now I'm numb And I guess closing up. I've got to. or die. I don't mean this literally so don't get your shorts in a bunch, but I'll die inside if I don't close up. Understand all? I think you do. Joel. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
AVANTI Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 664INDIA/MAHARASHTRA/PUNE |
this is a very true poem its hard to lose someone but it's happens and we are left with nothing but to move on...it's the worst thing but when you find a way like writing it gets easier... lovely poem see you around If all was light...then I would have never learnt the dark...from which such truth evolves from which evolves the light... Avanti Rao |
||
|
Joel the wolf Senior Member
since 2000-04-06
Posts 1333Angels Camp |
Thank you so much Avanti, yes writing has helped? I think, yes I know. I had been repressed from writing for many years by my X, I make simple mistakes, that a few years will cure, I just hope all you good people will put up with me until I get my poop together. again thank you. I howl a mournful song, that echos within my chambered heart, for all to read? nay for all to feel. |
||
|
|
⇧ top of page ⇧ |
|
| All times are ET (US). All dates are in Year-Month-Day format. | ||
