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You'll Never Be Mine
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You'll Never Be Mine |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA 
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A very difficult poem for me, it took me months to finally force myself to write it. And yet, with all that release, the pain is still very strong. ~YOU'LL NEVER BE MINE~ I wish to God that I never met you, that my eyes never gazed upon such beauty, that my fingers never felt yours caressing back softly and seductively and that my ears never heard your sweet words and soothing voice, I still remember how my soul breathed in your very essence when you walked into the room with that irresistable air and how all was beautiful for a time when you smiled and winked at me with those captivating brown eyes showing me that peace did exist through your gentle spirit, although I did not know you as a lover I knew your heart, whispers in the air from angels told me that you were meant to hold me and dance with me for life, you were the portrait of love that was painted long ago in a little girl's mind creating the perfect man...her soulmate and she finally found you standing there and yet I can never touch your colours or have your paintbrush sweep across the palette of mine, the kisses, the nights, the embraces that I'll never have with you serves only to remind me in the midnight hours and in the waking dawn of this heaven and this hell that I relive, my tears call out your name though my frozen lips speak it not for, you will never hear my song, still, I remain devoted to the dream, to the longing, ever faithful and enchanted as I've always been with you, moonlight sneaks into the darkness of my heart, thoughts of romance and love agonizingly slow fades to black, torn between prayers to God... please make him love me... please force my heart to shed it's last tear and forget, both are endless tortures, memories never vanish into the night and he shall never return to love me, songs of doves awake me, my eyes open as I lay alone without you haunted by visions of you and her together, making love, left with the bitter realization that our time has passed, you desired me for only a moment's time it seems knowing that you'll never be mine, but, how does the heart let go of the most breathtaking dream? If this is for the best why does the memory of you live on when we said our goodbyes? You've left me behind and made a new life with her yet, you often reappear before me with sadness behind the smile, just as unsettled as I am, why when it hurts us both do you still go to where I am, knowing that I'll be there, and then leave me to go home to her? For as long as I live, my heart shall have no choice but to always compare every man to you, they will never be you... no matter how hard I try to convince myself I cannot let go of you, of the memory, of the hope of true love finally found within your arms, most of all I cannot let go of the regret, of the anger towards myself for pushing you away when you wanted me, my soul cannot forgive me, it cannot let you go, please God let me, let go of a love that will never be mine *By Melissa Honeybee* < !signature--> The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams [This message has been edited by Melissa Honeybee (edited 09-17-2000).] |
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Cuddlez Member
since 1999-11-27
Posts 422Walla Walla, WA 99362 |
So sorry you had to find out the hard way. Sounds very painful. Let go girl. You don't want to but it ends up being less painful- eventually. Cherish the memories but move on. ~Cuddlez~ Time flies? Say it not so, time stays we go. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Such a sad confession. Someday you will be ready and a soulmate will be ready and the sun will shine for both of you...James |
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rosepetals25
since 2000-05-31
Posts 3076PA |
Melissa, This poem brought tears to my eyes. For three years I loved some one who I knew I couldn't have. It was harder than words can describe..and I admire your strenth for being able to write this and share it. I send a hug to you.. I know how hard this road is to travel. rp25 |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
When I came to Passions this is exactly how I felt and had felt for a few months before that. I now have been able to let go and have found one that makes the past love seem like a high school crush. I know it hurts now and nothing but time will take that away and some of it will never go, but you will have your day and in the arms of someone who you really are meant to be with. Your true soul-mate is out there somewhere searching for you and when the two of you meet then all of this will seem like nothing more than a passing of time used to grow in life. POWERFUL pouring from the heart. |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
Thank you very much to everyone for reading this painful piece of mine and for your support. Rosepetal and Mark, thank you for the kind words, it's comforting to know that you once shared my feelings and understand what I am going through. Take care, Melissa Honeybee The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams |
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juliet_2u Senior Member
since 2000-07-23
Posts 1125North Carolina |
Melissa, this is so very sad. It touched my heart, forcing me to remember my first love that it took me over 20 years to finally get over. My heart truly goes out to you, may your heart find peace and your soul gentle rest. Juls |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Oh, Melissa~ This is one of the loveliest (even if painful) writes you've done. Some of the lines are romantic poetic perfection - but then isn't that the way of the heart ? Beautiful, my friend. Letting go doesn't always mean to let go of the beautiful memories that would create such romantic writing .... To move beyond is sometimes the only way to move at all. *Hugs* and best wishes for your future ... someday, some soul-mate is going to know the deepest love from you ... and give it in return. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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CrazyChick Member
since 2000-01-05
Posts 132 |
This is a very touching piece. I can never understand how we can be so inviting to something that brings so much pain....but, thats life i guess. Unfortunatly, i can relate to this. I know how hard it can be, and i wish you all the best of luck. Just take it one day at a time. Somehow, it all works out.  |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Melissa oh how I know this poem, it's like some sort of divine torture, meeting your soulmate, and then being denied the rapture. Is there an answer I don't know, but girl this is a perfectly writen gem. I really like this poem, and I can see the pain you're going through. What's that saying the only way is up, so I'll meet you on the way up. We can offer each other a hand, take care. |
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angelswing Senior Member
since 2000-02-10
Posts 705United Kingdom |
That was really heartfelt, I am glad you shared it with us as the first step to recovery is accepting and moving on . I think you've done a fabulous job . Thanks . L.of.L. Tom . Don't try, do or do not, there is no try . - Master Yoda - |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
Melissa, you have no idea how this touched me. . . to be forced to let go of one that we have come to love. . . to realize that it will never work. . . it's hard I know. . . But the lessons we learn, as so many others have said, make us better prepared to see the one for us when they come. . .and they will come for you my friend. . . This is the most wonderful poem I've read from you. . . Excellent. . . --------------------------------------------------------- That which gives light must endure burning --Victor Frankl |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
Just To Look At You Just to look at you breaks my heart, for I know you are too beautiful to be mine for more than a moment or so. Just to look at you, my knees tremble and go weak I melt in the smile you cast along with the words you speak. Just to look at you makes me helpless and shy and the way you touch me, at the same time, I fall and fly. Just to look at you, the passion you have about you captures me in one deep breath that moment, I can't live without you. Just to look at you, all reality escapes my mind, for that moment all my troubles are left far from me behind. But you are too beautiful to be mine for more than a moment or two- and this is why it breaks my heart just to look at you. |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
Thank you so much to Angelswing, Marsha, crazychick and Juliet_2u for understanding and for the advice it means a lot Sven and Marge thank you for the high compliment and for the support as always. Passing Shadows that was a beautiful and bittersweet poem, I printed out a copy for myself Take care, Melissa Honeybee< !signature--> The beauty of poetry gives my soul wings to fly free within dreams [This message has been edited by Melissa Honeybee (edited 09-18-2000).] |
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