Claire..I feel so petty at the moment after reading this...and yes I know the feeling of dying right along with them..I only have more to look forward to as I am in that perfect age of maturity ....and I expect to be the one to care for my mother when the time arrives (hopefully not for awhile yet), And I agree life is precious and I think that is why it affects me so...But it also helps to have someone to hold and comfort you and You,they...and not add to the feelings of emptiness..and yes poetry helps and friends help but I wrote this once in anger mostly and this is where I stand in my life...
Pillar To Pillars One And All
I used to be that PILLAR,
standing so tall and erect.
No matter what the problem,
I was always there to direct.
A shoulder needed to lean on ...
Advice to give and share ...
But whatever happened when I needed,
that special someone to care?
For years and years
my friends would come,
no matter if night or day.
I was always here for them.
And here they could always stay.
A house burned down ...
A divorce that's new ...
A death in the family ...
A babysitter, too.
I don't know when it happened.
And I don't yet understand.
How can they leave me stranded?
I feel like I'm second-hand.
Do you think it's because they can't bare the thought
of seeing their PILLAR fall?
But they could help me stay erect,
if they really cared at all.
So 'CHEERS', to all you PILLARS,
and I will now be the first,
to thank you all for caring
and dealing with the worst.
I've heard it said somewhere, I think,
that if you're the PILLAR to your friends,
the day you need one for yourself,
is the day your friendship ends!
thank you again Claire