[First Post] 21
Cape Cod, MA
After all the years I never thought I would feel a love so new and so strong. But,a wonderful young woman showed this blind man a love he now can not live without. Though I may have lost her for good, what she has given me will live on forever!
In my life I've seen so much suffering,
I learned to survive it well
I learned to hide the experiences,
so no one else could tell.
Then one day you came along,
and pulled me from my shell
Though you may not have ever known,
you saved me from my hell.
You tried so hard to bring me up
and I resisted your every move
You didn't know, for I hid it well
You're love you needn't prove.
I seemed as though I wasn't listening,
when you whispered in my ear.
But when you spoke my heart was glistening,
and I longed to keep you near.
So many times I disappointed you,
and showed I didn't care.
But, you became my heart and soul,
your love my very air.
We drifted apart and you grew tired
of trying so many times.
You're heart felt pain and misery.
you no longer believed my lines.
But, I knew not how to show in truth,
how much I loved you so.
It wasn't easy for me to see,
until I saw you go.
Now I see more suffering,
more pain and disbelief,
For you are not anymore,
my refuge and relief.
I've said so many awful things,
I stabbed your tender heart.
Yet I am the one who's blood is spilt,
each day we are apart.
We trade attacks and hurtful words,
and speak of dislike and hate.
But, that is not the way I feel
or pray is my final fate.
For the moment after the anger passes,
I look through all the tears.
I realize that without your love,
I have found a few new fears.
As I close my eyes and see your face,
my heart feels a moment of joy.
But then the light of each new day,
breaks it, like a fragile toy.
Is this the life I given myself,
full of torture, sorrow and grief
or can God and you forgive my soul,
and make my suffering brief.
If I have not killed all your love,
and driven you to hate.
I ask that you give one more thought,
that it may not be too late.
For even through all this misery
that we both now are feeling
I have one thing that is alive and strong,
that can provide a little healing
It's what you gave me and I now feel,
though late and out of time.
It's love so strong, I wonder still,
if it is really mine.
I know you no longer give me trust,
of care if I'm around.
But, I can not go on in life,
till your forgiveness I have found.
and even if you deny me that,
and go on your chosen path.
I know that I will always love you,
and still feel sufferings wrath.
Please look in your heart and find a spot,
my words and actions have not stained.
and give just a thought, no more than that,
to any love that may remain.
[This message has been edited by TheBlindMan (edited 04-16-2000).]