Locked inside and pounding its way out,
my broken heart beats furiously.
Memories of you infect my brain.
I miss you,
and these black tears are expressing my sorrow.
Drowning in this possibly self-inflicted misery
is killing me.
I want to see you, but I know that the cold harshness you'd greet me with would not ease the pain.
I despise myself for needing you, an unfeeling shell of nothingness,
to love me.
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
-the words of a friend