|* So Far Away with a Sunburn *
I'm one of those stars, you barely can see
surrounded by millions much closer than me -
I'm so far away, my light's just a wink
Far off in the void of deep darkness, I blink...
It's so very cold, out here all alone
that brightness they shine with - I've never known.
Can anyone see me - does anyone care?
I desperately blink, but it gets me nowhere...
How did I ever get so far away,
from the rest of the stars - did they push me away?
Or did I make this choice, to be here by myself,
a dim little light on the very back shelf.....?
Does something inside me cause me to be shy,
where I stand all alone in a corner & cry?
Wanting someone to touch me, but cringe if they do
wanting someone to reach out to me, like you do...
I want to be seen, yet refuse to shine bright -
Scared to mingle with other stars there in the night...
So alive, yet so timid - what's so wrong with me?
I break down and cry when you reach out to me...
I know I am safe with you, please pull me near
Reel me in closer to those that I fear...
Retrieve me from distant dark galaxies lost
I want to be seen - no matter the cost.
I want to be close to the stars that shine bright
so maybe on me, they can shed some warm light.
You reach out to me, and you say it's not hard,
Help me feel safe, so I'll let down my guard.
Everytime I have been close to someone
They lash out and burn me, intense like the sun...
No wonder I've drifted so far out to sea -
a dim little star, no one sees me, but me........
- Written for my newfound brother, who has shown me safety, and is helping to reel me in, from my fears of being alone and misunderstood. He knows my heart, and my void. Thank you Robert - thank God for fishing poles, and you.