I can't seem to find the words to say just how I feel My pain is ever growing since they put you on that hill I stop by to say I miss you almost every day I pray that God above will soon take this hurt away
I can still see you lying there in a bloody heap I wish that I could close my eyes and this memory delete It haunts me every waking hour and in every wink of sleep Ever losing grip on sanity no longer mine to keep
I would give most anything if I could change history Cause in my heart I know that you should be here instead of me In my cell, my private Hell locked inside my head If I hadn't had too much to drink then you would not be dead
Don't take this litterally I am not speaking from experience. It's just something that came to me
[This message has been edited by Jeffrey Carter (edited 04-14-2000).]
I think it takes more skill to express so vividly feelings that are not your own, than it does to express the ones you can write from first hand.
"The storm rises up when the shadows descend every beat of my heart every day without end I will stand like a rock I will bend till I break till theres no more to give if thats what it takes I will risk everything I will fight I will bleed I will lay down my life if thats what you need every second I live thats the promise I make"
I have no idea who wrote this... tell me if you know. =)
Excellent work, Jeffrey - you definitely have a gift! It moves me to respond as you did to one of my poems. I think you said something like, "don't take this the wrong way - but, I love you, man!" Well, back at ya!
Thank you all for your compliments. They are greatly appreciated. I cannot tell you how it feels to finally feel like someone really cares enough to read my thoughts. I'd just like to say " I LOVE YOU ALL" Thanks for making this place feel like HOME
I'm not sure that "enjoy" is a word I would use but certainly gives the feeling of anguish but I wonder if that is how someone feels when they are in that position...sorry, too close to home so made me think..
Love Bug, It has touched way too many lives. Such a sad fact of society.
Rainbow, Now that I have had time to think about it I agree that "enjoy" was the wrong word in this situation. And I think this is the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone (just my opinion ) to know that you are partly if not wholly responsible for the death of someone you love all because you made a stupid mistake. I think if I was in this situation this would be pretty much how I felt. "In my cell, my private Hell, locked inside my head.
Martie, Very sad indeed
Thank you all for your kind words. They are greatly appreciated.