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I needed some resort to vent out feelings which is really pushing me to bouts of depression and I'm amazed by this haven in internet. Help me guyz as this is my second poem....I can't write the first one without my lover's consent. It's a lovely place.
ODE TO MY Love
I'm in love with u dear
I'd like to be with you always near
When are you going to understand
And say exacly where we stand
Have you ever been clear with your feeling
Have u ever come out with your ailing
Understand,I'm not the one who caused your falling
How can I do that being so loving
When everyone said u're not a not a person to be
I felt, I should get everyone busted
Whenever you told about your dreams
I wanted to be a small part of it by all means
I know you love me dear and want me to be near
So please hear without any fear..
I know you dislike me to the max
When you feel I should be stoned to death' do it,
My dear,but my love for you will rise out of the
ashes as a phoenix
I've tried in every way to make u understand
You're the love with whom I always stand
You beat me, cheat me, bleed me to death, stoning
Every night u'll hear a moaning
Which will be the mourning for me and my love
Which would have died though as fresh as a white
I hold you in such high esteem
I always think we'll form a very good team
But history repeats.....
I repeat my love to you
You never care and you'll never dare
I'll always be near
You should never fear
Lord is always here
For everything you find it hard to bear
Nothing is lost when u love someone
If they don't respond to your emotion
It doesn't mean that they have no love notion
For love doesn't require a celebration
It requires silent appreciation
I've hurt some on my way here
But I've never hurt you dear
It was my silent fear
They prevented me from being clear
You say I can count on you as a friend
As you think I'm a disguised fiend
Have u ever tried to make urself clear
Maybe, its the fate of your star
I'll always say to myself I've not deserved your
Though when you ask yourself its truer the other
As I said I'm emmotional, Emma
I've never been in an emotional dilemma
I've pretended to be stonehearted in the past
Pains that hurt me were so vast
You think I'm dishonest
It's 'coz you never dared or cared to trust
Hiding yourself is dishonest
So come out with your trust
I know u've felt the pain every bit in the past
Please realize,I went through it more aghast
I'm not a sinner or a winner
I'm just a sincere lover or a weaver..
Weaving dreams of you and me as a single body and
For which you're a totally blind..
It's not going to be my call again
I'd have caught my next train
I'd have left you in pain
Our love ending up in vain
I'm going to take a break
I'm letting it to yourself to be awake
And see how my hearts quake
Its a transperent lake and not a fake
If not on earth,
Let our soul meet in heaven
As in earth,
I'm just a busted goal and love-bitten
Please forgive me for saying all these
If your love was just a tease
Or your way to please
I'm going far away from you even farther from
I'd like to gain strength to build a new
To explore more..
To smile as I've forgotten it for a while..
To see every relationship is honest rain from
To be free from guilt...
Which you've biult..
When I love someone again,
It'll be just not a lean on others' shoulders
It'll be a trust strong enough to displace
Of 'mistrust' and replacing it with 'musttrust'
Which you can never understand as u'll never trust
I'm going Emma...
Its upto you now to find me..
I've given myself to you long ago..
I've always lived upto your expectations of person
But u thought me only as an arson..
It's true in a way, as I'm in a self made prison..
Saying everytime I'll not let anyother person..
To replace my prized possesion..
Please don't you mistake it for obsession....
Flying fish never stays in air all the time..
It returns to water when the bells chime..
I was a flying fish one..
I had to be to see the world above..
I was just peeping to see where we can fit in with
As I don't want it to be a temporary lease..
See you and have a nice time...
Ask yourself, if u have sometime...
Please ask yourself and the people around if you
fail to see..
The happiness I have felt just seeing you..
(A true lover)