~But I'm Not Bitter~
How did we get to this place,
and why does it seem so damn easy for you.
I've spent a lifetime now on this sad highway ...
the journey leaves me weary, still not knowing where these roads lead to.
Seems like we been doing this dance forever,
our own little twisted game of musical chairs.
I'm not sure I know the words to the songs anymore ...
even worse, I'm not sure if I still care.
What do you see when you look at me...
why were you always the last one to know --
the last one to cry, or speak an apology,
but God, you were always the first one to go.
You knew I'd give you anything...
still you always led me into to the fire.
Then halfway thru, leaving me in the flame...
Why is it always about you...your need ... your desire.
Does the deceit make it all more of a thrill for you,
it must...considering all the lies you've spoken.
Then you complete your gift of misery --
tying it up with a bow, made from all the promises you've broken.
What is it that you truly want from me ...
besides a lap dance or two.
I'm tired of being your carnival ride,
I'm tired of being just something for you to do.
To this point I've always been faithful,
can we same the same of you.
For a long time now, you cant look me in the eye,
it's okay, you don't have to answer ... I already knew.
As far as my heart goes ...
you cant own it, buy it, or break it.
You've simply took your self out of it ...
and I'm no longer in the mood, or mind to fake it.
The stars shine so bright, now's the time
I close my eyes - soft wind touch my face,
Cool sand upon the place where I once kissed you
And held you close.
Now I will reach for the stars...
Because Oh my love, that's where you are...
Though the storms of black night rage on
I still see your face
I still feel your lips on mine
And though my heart feels all alone without you
I still hear you sing to me
I still hear your voice on the sea...
[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 04-09-2000).]