**dedicated to my two grandmothers,
who only looked upon us with loving eyes.
To "Katydid" & "Miss Lily", with love.
~Eyes That See On Thru~
I've always had this vision ...
and this need, deep, down inside.
It's always been with me,
thru all the years and all the tears I've cried.
Some told me it was my gift ...
others say its my curse.
Somedays it was hell,
other days even worse.
I cant tell you where this ability comes from,
in fact, I never knew.
It has always just been there ...
this gift ... of eyes that see on thru.
Close friends and family were unsure,
they could never quite understand.
Always questioning why ...
I kept my emotions in such high demand.
It was not my choice ... it is just true.
It's all part of a purpose,
when you have been given eyes that see on thru.
Only grandma understood,
she'd just smile -- cause she knew ...
She'd lived her life with this secret,
she felt that deep need too.
Perhaps she was the one who gave it to me ...
for grandma had these gifted eyes ...
only hers were indigo blue.
Please understand I'm not bragging ...
I'm only trying to explain.
Everyone always asking me ...
"why are you in so much pain"?
But it just comes with territory,
there is nothing one can do ...
It's all part of the plan --
of having eyes that see on thru.
My eyes see the sorrow ...
the shadows between the lines.
I recognize the losses,
all the reasons our past define.
I believe I was granted this gift,
because of the pain my heart knew.
These eyes are were given to me ...
so that I might see the pain inside of you.
Sometimes it made me crazy ...
if I let it ... it could drive me insane.
But I learned to use it with necessity,
and to never use it in vain.
To try to reach out to others ...
the ones most truly in need.
To let them know they are not alone,
as a lonely heart does bleed.
I've always believed --
this was what we all should do.
Then we would all own the gift ...
of these eyes that see on thru.
Perhaps you posses this talent ...
many others do.
Please, it's not that I think I'm special --
it's just that I know ...
so many others are hurting too.
You see, once I was looked upon with love ...
by healing eyes that saw on thru.
It changed my life forever,
so now it's only right ...
that I should try to do the same for you.
** I truly hope this poem is taken the way it is intended.I have struggled with finishing it for a long time. It is based on specific promises made to them in their last days. I know it is a long one...(smile)...some days ya just gotta go with the flow. It's also time to let this one go...
take care, jm
[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 04-05-2000).]