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What Will They Think?

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Elizabeth Santos
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0 posted 03-20-2000 09:54 AM       View Profile for Elizabeth Santos   Email Elizabeth Santos   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions  View IP for Elizabeth Santos

What Will They Think?


Will they think me a coward?
That is my greatest fear
They donít know the truth

The truth walks in whispers
Slowly, ever so slowly
Not wanting to be noticed, but itís there
I know its there
Canít anybody see?  Doesnít anybody know?

Ah, these masks of deception
How they hide the truth
But I know the truth
And I tremble

Iím not one to be afraid

I wear the mask
But I know the truth
Itís in the waking hour
It comes ever so quietly
Like creatures foot on fresh snow
It passes unnoticed, but leaves its mark
It changes as a growing child changes
So slowly and so quickly

Why do I tremble?
Iím not one to be afraid

I feel the change
Itís in the sleeping hour
Even in sleep the muscles speak
The truth never goes away
It consumes me
I tremble at night on the inside
It must be fear

And Iím not one to be afraid

It never stops creeping towards me
It devours my brain
In slow pieces

Itís not insanity
Itís only a nightmare
That doesnít go away

I am consumed by fear
And Iím not one to be afraid

Itís hard to swallow
But I donít know why
My muscles cramp
They torture me with pain
Or is it only my brain that is tortured?
I am dizzy and weak
Is that my imagination?

Is it fear that consumes me?
Is that why I tremble?

How will I tell them?
The little ones
How will they ever understand?
Will they think me a coward?
That I couldnít fight this devil

That scares me more than anything
And Iím not one to be afraid

How will they remember me?
Will they know who I am?
I am a person, you know
I am trembling
I am fighting
I am weeping

Iím not one to be afraid

Look at my past
Look how I fought
Look what I did
I overcame barriers
I won victories
I gave all I had to give
I loved with all my heart
Look how I fought
I was never one to be afraid

But they donít know that

How will they remember me?
Will they think me a coward?

Elizabeth Santos



[This message has been edited by Elizabeth Santos (edited 03-20-2000).]
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Pepper
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1 posted 03-20-2000 11:06 AM       View Profile for Pepper   Email Pepper   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Pepper

You are a woman of great courage and beauty Liz ...
The grandchildren will have their parents rememberences to keep this fresh in their minds .... and they have you.. now ......
Beautifully written Liz .......
Love ya,
Shannon
Seymour Tabin
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2 posted 03-20-2000 01:39 PM       View Profile for Seymour Tabin   Email Seymour Tabin   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Seymour Tabin

Elizabeth,
The poem is well written and I understand what you are saying. We all have the same fears. Some more sensitive then others. No mail from you and I am a little worried.
Love Sy
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3 posted 03-20-2000 03:45 PM       View Profile for Martie   Email Martie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Martie's Home Page   View IP for Martie

Dearest Liz, it is not shamful to be afraid...and it is certainly not the sign of a coward...the unknown is frightening, and things that rob our bodies of their blooming youth.  What a wonderful heart-felt poem you have written...ah, and free verse.  You are a wonder, and everyone that knows you believes that, even the little ones.
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4 posted 03-20-2000 03:58 PM       View Profile for Denise   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Denise

No one would ever think you a coward. You are one of the bravest people I know. You have great endurance. Great poem, Elizabeth. Very expressive of your inner self. I wish I could take your pain from you. HUGS

Love ya
Denise
Elizabeth Santos
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5 posted 03-20-2000 06:23 PM       View Profile for Elizabeth Santos   Email Elizabeth Santos   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Elizabeth Santos

Pepper, Yes, that is why I live for each day. Thank you, dear.

Sy, No need to be concerned. I am doing well. This is just a poem on a screen. Thanks for reading and commenting

Martie, How sweet, and hey, how about this free verse. I think this could be alittle smoother, but you know me and free verse. It's very tough. Thanks for your remarks

Denise. Thank you for your support. I know this poem sounds depressing, but I am not depressed, though I do have thoughts about how my grandchildren will remember me. Thanks, dear.

Liz
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6 posted 03-20-2000 06:43 PM       View Profile for RainbowGirl   Email RainbowGirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit RainbowGirl's Home Page   View IP for RainbowGirl

Liz:

How can you be a coward when you face things head on?

How can you be a coward when you care so much about others?

How can you be a coward when you make the most of what you have?

How can you not be afraid?

Because I would be..

I think you handle your situation with courage, beauty, defiance and strength and on top of all that, you give the gift of love!

That is how I think of you now..

HUSG
Elizabeth Santos
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7 posted 03-20-2000 07:41 PM       View Profile for Elizabeth Santos   Email Elizabeth Santos   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Elizabeth Santos

Cindy, I'm trying to write through my tears, but honestly, I can't even see the keyboard. Because I know what you have been fighting so couragiously. I will never give up fighting, but I have a hard time explaining things to my grandchildren and wonder how they will remember me. You, Cindy, are a friend and an inspiration. Thank you
I love you
HUSG
Liz
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8 posted 03-20-2000 08:12 PM       View Profile for Marge Tindal   Email Marge Tindal   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Marge Tindal's Home Page   View IP for Marge Tindal

Oh my fair Elizabeth~
You do not cry the tears alone.
I cry them with you.  
They will remember you for the beauty
in your smile, the oomph in your hugs,
the challenge of your spirit, your words
of sweet beauty.  
Oh, they will remember the woman who
gave more than she took ... and most of
all they will know that she was
'not one to be afraid'.
The courage you display ... they will
be honored to remember.
So much love to you, my friend.
Love ~*Marge*~
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9 posted 03-20-2000 08:37 PM       View Profile for Dr.Moose1   Email Dr.Moose1   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Dr.Moose1

E.
One with such eloquence of spirit will be remembered for the strength they have shared with others . Have no doubt .
Doc
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10 posted 03-20-2000 09:17 PM       View Profile for RainbowGirl   Email RainbowGirl   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit RainbowGirl's Home Page   View IP for RainbowGirl

Liz: You crazy loveable lady....you have me in tears now...    Where's that flipping cognac...I think we should have a toast to courage, love, friendship and honesty..  

I understand about telling the children, well, in a limited way..   much depends on there age but if ever I have had to tell a child something sad, I tried to be as direct as possible and encourage any questions and they seem to accept it and then run off and play, the tiny ones that is but the older ones seem to appreciate that you tell them and encourage them to ask questions, share many tears and hugs...don't know if that helps, it's something I have never had to do with children of my own..but they will love you anyway, regardless, they just don't see parents or grand-parents the way we seem to relate...I think I would prefer to live amongst children and their innocence...ooops, I rattled on, must be bedtime..  

HUSG and sweet dreams

[This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 03-20-2000).]
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11 posted 03-20-2000 09:42 PM       View Profile for Balladeer   Email Balladeer   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Balladeer's Home Page   View IP for Balladeer

Liz, the only possible coward you could be would be Noel Coward, maybe, since he is also a gifted writer. Your courage puts others to shame.
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12 posted 03-20-2000 11:11 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

Once again, reduced to tears...I do so admire how the style of this followed the emotion...(something I am working on...)

Pure Perfection, Liz!
Elizabeth Santos
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13 posted 03-21-2000 03:14 AM       View Profile for Elizabeth Santos   Email Elizabeth Santos   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Elizabeth Santos

OK, Marge, Doc, Cindy, Balladeer, Serenity, Pepper, Sy, Martie and Denise, here is a toast, offered by Cindy, for courage, love, friendship, and honesty, those things that help us through the challenges of life. I'll drink to that, and add that the friendships I've gained here on Passions are the best gift that I have been given. There's nothing I can't do when I have the support of friends like you. Thank you for your beautiful responses, and thank you, Cindy, for your ramblings
Love
Liz
 
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