I step towards you with my arms open wide
I can see the tears in your hazy blue eyes
I wonder if you'll ever feel as if your loved
You never want me to hold you
or want me to say "I love you"
I touch your cheek on your sunken in face
I wonder when you'll end this terrible race
I look at your bones sticking out of your frame
You never want me to feed you
or want me to say "You're beautiful"
You smile as you lay your head on my shoulder
I pray and wish someone would have warned her
You don't cry anymore I think you're just numb
You never want me to comb your hair
or let me rekindle your spark.
My gaze stays locked on your mirror-like eyes
I think of all my attempts, failures, and tries
You never laugh anymore and you never cry
You never let me listen to you
or let alone, talk about your problem.
As I hold you there I wish I could take you away
But if I tried to take you, I know what you'd say
You'd say, "I'm alright, I always am Kimberly."
You never want me to take you away
or let me make a bed for you here.
I wish sometimes I could take your place
Even if I am not your mother, but just a friend
You are everything to me and I always have a fear
that I'll lose you one day to the darkness...
When you are in and out of the hospital you tear me apart dear.