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MyPenNameIsSam
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since 2000-03-06
Posts 94
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0 posted 2000-03-12 02:06 AM


written late 1999, added to and edited 3/11/00
rough draft as usual

At The Jazz Show Without Him

People dancing
Happiness
They're letting loose
Looking good for others
Yet feelin' the groove

With someone I love
And the love of her life
Sitting in candle rays
Silk leaves and red light

Simultaneous with saddness
Sadness in "alone"
Loneliness in without him
Without him,..finally WITH ME

Struggeling to find myself
The self I've never known
and the me that ran away

Where have I gone?
Where am I hiding?

How far must I reach
to catch hold of my soul?
How deep must I dig
to find where my roots grow?

I try and I try
Yet I can't seem to find
That piece of me that left with him
Or those pieces I left behind

My soul seems so torn
between now, then and before
Soon, future and present
all knock at my door

Each one hides in shadow
Each before locks its door
I knock and I knock
but to no true avail (sp?)

My entrance denied
My poor soul torn and frail
I know I am strong
But when lost, broken and stale...

I find myself searching
in all that I do
Yet mostly refusing
to love me as true

I can't seem to face
This new "me" I don't know
Yet the me that I knew
Left with him and locked the door

Perhaps I shall find
That key hiding in this "me"
But I fear that the old me
May have blocked off the door.

-molly aka sam

 "One does not discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time." -Andre Gide


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EagleScorpion
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since 2000-03-08
Posts 1644
Here, Now, Forever
1 posted 2000-03-12 03:15 AM


Oh so I see you have a torn soul problem as well.. thats reassuring, it's very very late at night now. I think i'm going to go to bed, with that last poem in my head. I'm very tired, but i can still type the right keys. thats shows im not high or anything.
right?

jazzgal
Junior Member
since 2000-03-07
Posts 37

2 posted 2000-03-12 03:25 AM


Sam, I can feel the emotion speaking genuinely true with your words.  Will it ever find you? -- It always does, it always pull through...  keep hoping!  jazzgal
hoot_owl_rn
Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA
3 posted 2000-03-12 10:21 AM


A lot of emotions packed into this one Sam...I'm glad you are able to express them in a positive way
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