O.K. - the last thing I want to see is an argument brewing in one of my post. I am going to close this thread and let it slip into Passions Heaven somewhere where hopefully it will rest in piece.
In all fairness I will adress this last issue as best I can:
jbowie, I understand your points completely and i thank you for your understanding. I never addressed her by name nor in any manner would have tried to draw attention to her from anyone who didn't already know our situation, (or those that did) for that matter. I write my emotion, that simply is all this was. I would much rather have shared this with her in a private matter but I have never given that chance. However, the (nice choice considering) you applied after addressing Gen in your comment I found highly inappropriate - and almost egging Gen on in that manner, so I really can't see a suprise being justified that she jumped on you.
Now then, Gen, there are several lines in direct referance to you as you know. jbowie was simply stating that he never would have known had you not brought it to light. Even for those who did know it was about you and I, I think their opinions shouldn't have that much bearing on you or how you react to such. This has never been my way of trying to sway people one way or the other, it's merely been two things to me - 1, the only way I could release this emotion as you, my one point of strength were no longer there for me to lean on. And 2, my only way to comminicate any feeling to you as every line of commincation was in some manner shut off to me. I did return you a message after you told me I could email you anytime. I addressed my concern, and never heard back from you. Three days later, you deleted all your poetry and I was informed that you thought I was "obsessing" and so I never contacted you again. I think you said somewhere that "what others think means nothing, this is our relationship". That is my sentiment, exactly. This has never been an attempt to stir up any strife and thus I hope you don't feel I am trying to do so now. I can't say I wholly agreed with with your prior comments to me but to have peace at all right now between us means more to me than you could ever know - and I hope in all earnesty we can keep that peace and move forward from here in some manner.
On another note, you've asked me to help you stay focused, Gen. I promised you I would always be there when and if you wanted/needed to talk. I will not break that promise. I agree, we are both much better people when we are looking to the light and I will do all I can to help you in that manner. I must admit, though, I feel very uncomfortable even speaking with you right now. You tend to take many things I say as personal attacks when they are not and if I am to help you in any manner you have to realize I am only offering my friendship and nothing more. I NEED you to trust in that friendship. I can't be of any good if you don't believe in me or in my faith and you have acknowledged before that you don't believe in either...that is why I stand shakey to this.
Molly & Gemini,
I heard every word both of you said - I saw much wisdom there. Thank you both.
This thread will now be closed. If anyone stands opposed - that's why we have an Alley - I'll meet you there. Gen, You know how to reach me if that's your wish, and thank you.