This is an exceptional, expressive piece of writing, Butterfly. As for its content, I feel as though I know where you're coming from, perhaps. It's so difficult to keep that child in darkness, and sometimes even more difficult to allow her out. I have a poem here somewhere called "Forever Out" that addresses this subject, as well as many very gifted writers here who have written on the subject of accepting and loving one's inner wounded child. It can be a wonderful healing release, expressing your issues through poetry. Keep writing!