Member Rara Avis
If I were to die tonight,
How much would I miss from a full life?
I never would have lain with a woman,
Truthfully or otherwise.
I never would have felt so free
I could trust fully in god again.
And I never would have figured out
All the different flavors of wines.
I never would have been able to look at my watch
A billion trillion quadrillion more times.
I would have missed out on so much music,
So much other entertainment and intellect
That I never would have realized.
I never would have a group of support
To give me others to fall against sometimes.
I never would have seen New Hampshire again,
Nor experienced my first California earthquake.
I never would have been able to say sorry to some people;
I'm glad I left you to others.
I never would have finally found a voice or identity
That didn't waver darkly by candlelit words.
My heart flutters -- it feels like a shortness of breath.
I am reminded of the very small but very real possibility
That my heart could
Born with this damn syndrome.
Even the strongest of wills
To the reality
Even so, I am a stubborn sunuvabitch.
I'm going to find old age in my features,
Not just my insight.
And I'm going to accomplish as much as I possibly can.
No, I am not ready