A full years gone by and more and sometimes I wonder if I would cry if she showed up at my door once again to say hi. I wondered if she would ever find that she was missing me one more time. And would I want to hold her in my arms once more? Could I resist if she showed up to say Hi James, I was missing you today.
Would all those feelings return exactly like before? I remember all those other times when she came softy back to me. There was always a certain way she said hi to me. And then she would just stand there so patiently waiting to be accepted one more time by me. Somehow, she knew I needed her much more than her need for me. She was so sure I would rescue her yet was she really rescuing me or was she truly missing me?
I always knew that on a very close and near morning she would once more just walk out and walk away to find her place in this world on a brand new day. And I knew I would have to let her go away and miss her less and less each passing day.
This is the past that is very near to me right now. These feelings are in my heart for a woman that I wanted to love so desperately yet she would never allow herself to fall in love with me. I accept that her heart is only hers to give. I know I must let go of her and I will for her sake and yet I still miss her. James
Florida's Foreverly Shores
This was very beautiful. I am sorry that things didn't work out for you and this woman. But I wish for you love and happiness today and always. Someday you will find the right one for you! Until then know that I and many others care about you.
~Live today as though it were your last but prepare for tomorrow as though it were here~
Marge I love those words you wrote......I am so pleased. Aimster I truly do appreciate your concern. Janet Marie it makes me very happy when you compliment my writing. Oh yes, serenity, but she was very real, it was only her love that was a fantasy. Thank you all so much, James
James, it seems, sometimes, that losing even the "fantasy" of love is a pain unlike any other. And yet, what do we do? Close our hearts yet again? Leave them open and exposed? It is often so difficult to move from one moment to the next, knowing the risks that our hearts face. I like your poem very much.
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
Clair I sincerely want to give my heart and eagerly yet I now seem to be watching it a little more closely than ever before in my whole life. So I give my heart and if the response is not right I pull my heart right back...if that is possible. I was talking to a woman named Lina and she told me that it takes not only a soft heart to find love but also an honest heart. Something I need to think about. James